eisenlancer

Never done a blog before, so I thought I'd give it a shot. I'm going to try not to take this down the dark depressing path, because that's kinda how I feel lately. I've gotten pretty good at masking my emotions on a daily basis, so it's not a new concept. I just joined the site about a week ago...I live in a state where tattooing has only been legal for about 6 years and I never seem to be where the tat/pierced crowd is. If they exist here anyway. Got my first piercing a year ago in May and I like it, just haven't had a chance to try it out. Working for a Police Department kinda restricts where I can get tattoos and piercings, so I haven't gone crazy with them.

I'm liking the site so far, aside from the kinda exclusive crowd in the main chat room and crappy member search functions, but whatever...I'm not a chatty person anyway. The downside is that it's just amplifying my sexual rage right now . It's been damn near a year since I broke out of a 2 year relationship...and she didn't give it up much anyway, so who the hell knows the last time I got laid.

Speaking of the past year it seems like my life has gone stagnate. I started a new job where I space out for 10 hours 8 days in a row, then I get to spend 6 days off work trying like hell to escape my own thoughts. That pretty much entails vidya games, alcohol, working out and jerk marathons. If I knew a way to bottle my testosterone, I'd sell that shit. It's just frustrating as hell now that all my friends are married and/or have kids. Both are things I'm not really concerned with at this point. I like my space and my freedom, but there are plenty of nights I wish I had a girl to hang out with, talk to, and occasionally wear out...if that turns into something serious, so be it.

There's my rant for now...I'm not looking for sympathy, I just wanted to empty my head on the keyboard. Maybe I'll do more, maybe I won't.

No, I don't think these are my darkest days...I just like the band and the song was playing at the time.