eirian

"Hey gunner man that's quicksand, that's quick sand, that ain't mud."

Hello everyone,

I am sorry I have not been around. The death of Arcee has put me in a negative spot and I have been afraid to post and let out my negativity, but I am not getting out of it so I thought I better post to let people know I am alive. First off, I want to admit that I am a naturally pessimistic person, I always see the negative over the positive. I have to actively make myself optimistic. The death of Arcee has negated some of my positive progress. I am sure none of this makes sense, I just hope you all can sort of see where I am.

I know this sounds depressing but I actually am feeling better over all, I am coming to terms with the death. For a while I went a bit nutty and became obsessed with getting a new cat even though I already have 5 cats. I have been regularly visiting kitties at Petsmart. This ended when I brought home a cat who a co-worker was going to take to the pound. My kitties didn't seem to mind, but the new cat turned out to be psycho. She was nice one minute, then attacked the next. I gave her to a technician at my Vet who fosters for the Humane Society, and she has time to train the cat to be normal. She was lucky to be terribly cute:



I have started my last semester of grad. school and it is intense. I feel like I am never gonna get through it. The internship, working and all the fucking papers!!!! I also have to perform a qualitative research project, where I have to recruit subjects and the whole nine...I may die before graduation. Also, am responding my usual way when I am stressed and overwhelmed - play DS video games and watch anime...anything to escape reality.

I am sorry...I am not all that exciting right now...I will post again, soon. Love you all, thanks for noticing me.

Goodbye Vanessa...

Here are some kitty - Eirian pictures I took today:











Eirian

"Hey kid, you think that's oil? Man, that ain't oil, that's blood"