eireann

and if the world died today
like a slowly withered rose drowning in air and gasping for water...
I think I'd take two deep breaths and go back to this moment, this second right here
where the world is two-tenths away from being completely secure
when the ice melts just right and the cup barely sweats to leave
2 distinct water rings on this lovely...
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It's my birthday!
I lived another year!

Wherever this life takes me
I'm going to breathe.
Whatever this life gives me,
I'm going to be alright.

*breathes*
its just a matter of getting there.

I am so exhausted right now...
emotionally, mentally, physically.
I'm hoping for some snuggling tomorrow...
I've been such a rollercoaster of emotions for the past week.
The upside is that I have a boy who understands it; and encourages me through it.
He really is the love of my life.

I feel like a girl who has lived her life as a princess being told she's really a pauper...
I don't know what to do.
I don't know who to call.
I'm tired of the dishonesty and I'm tired of my insecurity...
I'm just tired of all of this.

Dear World,

I am captivating and intoxicating, although usually I'm just captive to my intoxication.
I'd write the world a love poem after I pop 1-2-3 white flat beans that promote this theory.

Pick out the things I did not do this weekend:
1. Went to City Club sober and stayed sober until 3 AM.
2. Had a semi-nervous breakdown which my poor boyfriend had...
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Thanks to everyone for your congratulations. I'm getting more and more excited as the days go buy. I've logged in and read all of my new information, and I've started telling my customers.

In non-work related news, it is now impossible for me to sleep in past 8, no matter how late I stay up. BAH.

More on the beginning of an era...
Today, or more like yesterday, I quit my job.

Deep breaths.

I quit my job of two and a half years, with a sound and secure position as a supervisor, to become part of a new management program at the world's largest bank. I'm excited and scared shitless.

A new era in my life... because I don't know...
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Well... today is the beginning of a new era.
More to come later.

so apparently, looking at my checking account balance or lack thereof,
I'm not going grey.

So... I'm here for another year! YAY!