Ok, seriously.
I'll post for real this time.
I barely worked at all last month- the first week of April I was on vacation and the last week I was out on bereavement. I should be all nice and rested but instead I feel burned out. I'm anti-social, lazy, and my apartment is so messy I can barely stand it. I've spent the last week with family, mostly, and a few clingy people.
Apparently no one else shares nor understands my desire to take a day away from people.
There is a girl I've mentioned before who I was good friends with in high school. I was her maid of honor last year in her wedding and honestly it's occurred to me many times in the last year and a half that *I* have outgrown that friendship. Her and her husband have called me 18 times in the past two days to try to convince me to go to see Spiderman with them today. I'm not really feeling it...but seriously... call once... leave a message... if you don't hear from me that day, call me again ONCE and leave a message... It's so irritating.
Anyways, grandma is now gone; my family is in shambles; the rock and foundation of my life has crumbled.
I am coping.
It's just that it's been smother Amy week and honestly, I am really tired of being smothered.
Aside from that, I thought I would announce I am in love with Jared Leto. It's been recently renewed with 30 Seconds To Mars, but previously I was in love with him because of My So Called Life. I believe Jared Leto was my first celeb crush. How lame.
So... when I come out of this cocoon, what's going on?
I'll post for real this time.
I barely worked at all last month- the first week of April I was on vacation and the last week I was out on bereavement. I should be all nice and rested but instead I feel burned out. I'm anti-social, lazy, and my apartment is so messy I can barely stand it. I've spent the last week with family, mostly, and a few clingy people.
Apparently no one else shares nor understands my desire to take a day away from people.
There is a girl I've mentioned before who I was good friends with in high school. I was her maid of honor last year in her wedding and honestly it's occurred to me many times in the last year and a half that *I* have outgrown that friendship. Her and her husband have called me 18 times in the past two days to try to convince me to go to see Spiderman with them today. I'm not really feeling it...but seriously... call once... leave a message... if you don't hear from me that day, call me again ONCE and leave a message... It's so irritating.
Anyways, grandma is now gone; my family is in shambles; the rock and foundation of my life has crumbled.
I am coping.
It's just that it's been smother Amy week and honestly, I am really tired of being smothered.
Aside from that, I thought I would announce I am in love with Jared Leto. It's been recently renewed with 30 Seconds To Mars, but previously I was in love with him because of My So Called Life. I believe Jared Leto was my first celeb crush. How lame.
So... when I come out of this cocoon, what's going on?
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c6h12o6:
I'm so sorry for your loss. I still can't pick my pieces up after my dad passed away back in December. (And hell, I still hadn't picked up the pieces from my divorce when my Dad died.) However, the only valid advice I can give you is that its ok to not feel good and its ok to collapse and find your life in shambles for the time being. She was important to you and she held things in place. When something like that is just not there any longer, of course it hurts. I wish you the best. Stay strong when you can, and when you can't, just rest.
oninotaki:
it was nice hanging out with you again last night, although next time set up an appointment, instead of asking me while I have been drinking please.