eireann

I once had this dream in the back of my mind that one day, just one day I would become a fairy tale princess and Prince Charming would sweep me off of my feet.
You can't turn a frog into a princess in everyday life, though.

I just want to be somewhere else. I want to get the fuck away from here...
anywhere but my shitty apartment where every inch reminds me of him.
I want to get away, I want to go somewhere else...
maybe take a drive
maybe find somewhere to find some peace of mind...
go sit by the lake...
cry this all away.
Please don't tell me to look at the bright side. You honestly have no idea how fucking terrible this is.

The truth of the matter, I think, is that leaving this place isn't going to change anything. Getting away for the weekend isn't going to mend my broken heart when I have to come back here.
What I really need, I think, is to become someone else
because I don't think I want to inadequate little me anymore.
I could die right now and this would be my legacy.

and just because I want to know
If I do die tonight
what would you say to me?