Sunday Oct 09, 2005

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radio. silence.
communication...gone.
lifeblood... lost.
I sit here listening to the static instead of...
voices familiar.

The cold fuzzy sound rushes through ears abandoned.
I am...devoid of humanity at this moment.
quiet will last only so long as I.pray.for.contentment.
my hope is lost.
disquiet overcomes the silence.
cut off.
radio.silence.
as I soar through memories unphased by my unwillingness to remember.
how to forget.
I forget by:
busy-ness. business. nice rarities in the disturbance in communication.
I feel your soul depart from mine and I am lost.
lost.
without my twin.
my ears are greeted by the static and busy circuits and excuses and quiet glances as if I am unable to understand the underlying avoidance.
stepping back from something so...
incredibly dangerous.
I have lost my ability for communication with the paranormal
paranoid.
pschizophrenic.
my own abnormalities will simply fail to understand this.
pull.back.
chaos.
my mind is in disorder.
coffee cannot help.
I wander without a compass and pray for the radio to spark back to life with...
direction.
inspiration.
comforting words.
the knives will cut me as I make my own.
radio silence.
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Why do I feel so alone when there are always people around me?
VIEW 21 of 21 COMMENTS
unique3:
maybe you need alone time or you've too much alone time and need to get out again.

any weekend plans? I work. but i'm hoping someone someplace has something fun going on! tongue
geist81:
"Solitary people. Some people are so used to solitude with themselves that they never compare themselves to others, but spin forth their monologue of a life in a calm, joyous mood, holding good conversations with themselves, even laughing. But if they are made to compare themselves with others, they tend to a brooding underestimation of their selves: so that they have to be forced to learn again from others to have a good, fair opinion of themselves. And even from this learned opinion they will always want to detract or reduce something. Thus one must grant certain men their solitude, and not be silly enough, as often happens, to pity them for it."
-nietszche

because you're used to feeling that way, which is not necessarily a bad thing.

anyway dove, you really ought to let us know how the slam went. and when you're gonna get published... wink

-josh

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