Hey everyone, It's been a while since I have posted, so I'm making a post! Crazy, right? I hope everyone had a great summer!
I know mine was really busy and everything. I have been in the process of moving from Wisconsin to PA, for college. I spent all summer looking for an apartment and getting things ready. So after a while, I did find an apartment and I finally moved in my apartment a few months ago. It's been a crazy summer because I have been so busy with finding things for my apartment. Finding doctors for my medical issues and depression and getting things ready for college. I have to say, it's amazing living on your own and away from your parents =P So much freedom at last! So yeah!
So far things have been okay, I have started college and it's going okay so far. It's a huge change because I haven't been able to go to school for like the past 6 years because of health issues. So it's a nice change to finally be able to go to college. I'm looking forward to meeting new people and trying to enjoy life for the first time in ages. It's been a long road with my health issues and depression, suicide and everything. I'm actually pretty surprised at how far I have come because it was only a few months ago that I tried to end everything. So it's been a crazy ride so far but I'm trying my best to be positive and to keep moving forward. Hopefully things continue to improve and not get worse because I really do want to enjoy life. And I haven't been able to enjoy life for the last 5-7 years. However, I really think college might do me some good and I might be able to get ontop of my depression.
However, I think it all depends on how my depression goes, my health issues and chronic pain. I think if I continue to move forward and not have any major health issues, or a ton of pain ( I'm on morphine for that ) then I think I'll be back on track to being happy. Hopefully things work out and I'm sort of looking forward to the future. I know I'm still going to have up and downs but I'm just hoping they don't get that bad because it's really hard to be positive and to keep moving forward when your mind is telling you all these negative things and that suicide is the best way out. I know it's not and I'm trying my best not to go down that road again, I already went down it and failed but I'm hoping I don't go down that road again. I still struggle with a lot of things but I'm going to try my best!
Anyway, I know not a lot of you know much about me but if you want to know more about my life and my struggles and what's been bothering me, then feel free to ask. I'll try my best to get back to you as soon as I can.
eigor ( Jon )
I know mine was really busy and everything. I have been in the process of moving from Wisconsin to PA, for college. I spent all summer looking for an apartment and getting things ready. So after a while, I did find an apartment and I finally moved in my apartment a few months ago. It's been a crazy summer because I have been so busy with finding things for my apartment. Finding doctors for my medical issues and depression and getting things ready for college. I have to say, it's amazing living on your own and away from your parents =P So much freedom at last! So yeah!
So far things have been okay, I have started college and it's going okay so far. It's a huge change because I haven't been able to go to school for like the past 6 years because of health issues. So it's a nice change to finally be able to go to college. I'm looking forward to meeting new people and trying to enjoy life for the first time in ages. It's been a long road with my health issues and depression, suicide and everything. I'm actually pretty surprised at how far I have come because it was only a few months ago that I tried to end everything. So it's been a crazy ride so far but I'm trying my best to be positive and to keep moving forward. Hopefully things continue to improve and not get worse because I really do want to enjoy life. And I haven't been able to enjoy life for the last 5-7 years. However, I really think college might do me some good and I might be able to get ontop of my depression.
However, I think it all depends on how my depression goes, my health issues and chronic pain. I think if I continue to move forward and not have any major health issues, or a ton of pain ( I'm on morphine for that ) then I think I'll be back on track to being happy. Hopefully things work out and I'm sort of looking forward to the future. I know I'm still going to have up and downs but I'm just hoping they don't get that bad because it's really hard to be positive and to keep moving forward when your mind is telling you all these negative things and that suicide is the best way out. I know it's not and I'm trying my best not to go down that road again, I already went down it and failed but I'm hoping I don't go down that road again. I still struggle with a lot of things but I'm going to try my best!
Anyway, I know not a lot of you know much about me but if you want to know more about my life and my struggles and what's been bothering me, then feel free to ask. I'll try my best to get back to you as soon as I can.
eigor ( Jon )
in response to this blog, my summer was alright, far too short, but got a lot done. helped two sisters move, and am in the process of helping my mum fix up her house to move. ill be moving in december, im super excited!
hope college is going well, ive got a couple more weeks before i start up again. *sigh*