eightarms

I'm exhausted, physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. The hand I have been dealt since birth has been shitty (thought it could always be worse), but it continues to decline at such a rapid pace that I can't stop falling down from the dizziness it's creating. I don't feel like I have a grasp on any aspect of my life at this time and it truly frustrates me. I don't know what to do, where to go, how to handle anything that used to be easy for me. I'm stuck in an ever deepening rut and for the first time, I truly don't know how to dig myself out. I hate my stressful job that doesn't pay me enough, my significant other doesn't commit or show any sign of emotion other than distaste for me and I feel very, very alone (except for my awesome friend Tim who has been an amazing rock for me). I just want to see some hope, is that too much to ask for?