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eidolon

chicago, il

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Thursday Jul 28, 2005

Jul 28, 2005
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It's been decided.

I'm about to invite an old friend, someone I've been close to for nearly fifteen years, to exit my life.

I'm not looking forward to this, but there's no other choice. We, once, shared the same demons. I recently reminded myself of that in all the wrong ways. A bad decision? Yes, but it was mine. A few years ago, I chose to look myself in the eye. In the name of my own health and in the name of my future, changes were made.

It breaks my heart, but I have no other choice than to walk away.
Certainty is a motherfucker.

Aside from that, I'm extremely happy right now. My mind and my imagination are taking me to all the right places. My circus far exceeds the three-ring requirements, and the animals are treated very, very well.
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hyenahell:
i've had to do that before. it is painful, but it's always for the best. i'm too impulsive as it is, and don't really need people who encourage my self-destructive nature. i always play this one Lou Reed song, "Hangin' Round", because i'm one of those people who honestly believes her life is actually a movie, and has a soundtrack with appropriate tunes for certain moments.

"You keep hangin' 'round me, and I'm not so glad you found me- You're still doing things that I gave up years ago..."

that's it in a nutshell, for me. i just don't have time for it anymore.
Aug 7, 2005
kristie:
You tryin' to start some shit?


It was definately a job for Bootsy, baby.
Aug 7, 2005

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