eidolon

My heart is all tied in knots. It doesn't feel quite as nice as it sounds, either. My x is back in the same destructive relationship she goes back to each and every time she feels lost and alone. He's one of these furry, toothless, insecure guys who waits until she's in a low or weakened position (this time, she just had surgery) and swoops in like a knight in filthy armor professing his undying love. Then, when it goes bad
(and it always does), he will beat her.

She falls for it every time, and it makes me cry. I'd just walk away if I could. Its not good for me, but its far worse for her.

She and I have a symbiotic (sp?) relationship. Even when we realized that we didn't have a future as lovers, we were able to move on. We go out for dinner, concerts, drinks, whatever, and he does just about everything he can to try and keep us apart. Mind you, he doens't even know that she and I were lovers. Imagine how bad it would be if he knew.

*WTF?!?!!?*
I wrote much more than this. why was my journal cut down? Bullshit!! Maybe I'll try again tomorrow, if I have it in me.