So I built this new computer and it's been a hudge pain in the ass. Not giving me the performance I expected and I'm testing and benchmarking everything for two days. I finally got it all worked out. It was my fucking video driver. I bultl this thing to play games and this was really pissing me off. I'm glad it's all worked out.
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I'm so bad at being social I just don't know how to do it. I'm trying to get all better and crap but I can't find people I can relate to and I don't even know how to approch people I do find interesting. any tips?
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phoenixrising:
Aww. I'm bad at it too.
You should bring your dogs to come play with my dog sometime. We live like right next to each other.
You should bring your dogs to come play with my dog sometime. We live like right next to each other.
egorgry:
doggie date would be fun. 
liz_marie1222:
Yay! I would have had a blast too, wish I could own dogs in my apt.
Weekends suck. I get bored and depressed. I never do anything and I have no one to do anything with anyway. 
I'm pissed because I was all set to go out to san francisco on the company dime and I have to cancel du to my fucked up situation.
Between the divorce, the house bullshit, and the fact that all my money is gone since I was depressed and hopatilized for a few months. (I had a $16,000 bonus go bye bye on me.) I'm basicly...
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Between the divorce, the house bullshit, and the fact that all my money is gone since I was depressed and hopatilized for a few months. (I had a $16,000 bonus go bye bye on me.) I'm basicly...
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malina:
awwww... you're were such a cute little anklebiter. 
sorry about the current situation...
sorry about the current situation...
munke:
Your divorce sounds about as pleasant and life-altering as mine was.
Don't worry, the west coast will be here, we're not going anywhere anytime soon...
Your divorce sounds about as pleasant and life-altering as mine was.
Don't worry, the west coast will be here, we're not going anywhere anytime soon...
My brothers cat killed a bat yesterday. His name is Kevlar and he's blind in one eye but I guess that doesn't matter considering bats are blind in both eyes.
I also have photo gallery up on my site I'll be updating it as much as I can, being on dial up sucks but I can't go back into my house until this divorce BS...
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I also have photo gallery up on my site I'll be updating it as much as I can, being on dial up sucks but I can't go back into my house until this divorce BS...
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I'm bored, lonely, tired, and can't sleep all at the same time. What a pain in the ass. I wish I had something more exciting to do then sit on the computer, I've been feeling better, like I want to do stuff again but I'm at a loss. What's there to do anyway? Most people around here are uninspiring, I'm not the type of guy...
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malina:
"Sometimes you just want to be with one who can make you laugh."
sounds about suiting... I know what you mean though...
maybe you could take up a hobby... like playing an instrument or something...
if we lived closer I'd love to hang out with you.
bored, lonely, tired and can't sleep is the story of my life. its pretty much every day... day in... day out.
sounds about suiting... I know what you mean though...
maybe you could take up a hobby... like playing an instrument or something...
if we lived closer I'd love to hang out with you.
bored, lonely, tired and can't sleep is the story of my life. its pretty much every day... day in... day out.
Thanks to wonderfull and selfless Malina I have a gift account active. I was having a hard time and I ended up canceling everything online and neglecting everything in my life. Her kind gesture and thoughtfullness gave me some hope when I needed it most. It's funny how someone I've never met was so kind and beautiful and gave me a fresh prespective on people,...
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malina:
awwwwwwwww.... sweetie...... 
I've been not okay for a while.
well, I jusst cut up my arm and my stomach. so much for positive thinking. I just can't take this shit sometimes. I feel like a failure but I'm not dead and if I did what I wanted to I would have taken all my meds and a bottle of red wine then I'd be free of all this but I'm hangin on for some...
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boo_radley:
I know it's hard, but you need to hang in there. You're not committing suicide because you want to live.
For the past thirty years I've experienced irregulaly spaced depressive episodes that made me want to throw myself down a well, but I got through with the help of friends and the knowledge that things would eventually improve.
I hope you aren't keeping all this to yourself, because that only makes it worse...if you don't have a therapist, at least talk to friends or someone at a crisis hotline. When I finally started, talking to people was one of the best things I did to make life more bearable.
Good luck, we're pulling for you.
For the past thirty years I've experienced irregulaly spaced depressive episodes that made me want to throw myself down a well, but I got through with the help of friends and the knowledge that things would eventually improve.
I hope you aren't keeping all this to yourself, because that only makes it worse...if you don't have a therapist, at least talk to friends or someone at a crisis hotline. When I finally started, talking to people was one of the best things I did to make life more bearable.
Good luck, we're pulling for you.
liz_marie1222:
Oh boy. You are hanging on because you know that there is cause to. You have lots of life ahead of you, and deep down inside you know that.
Life isn't always easy, it's hard and the fact that you feel like total shit and have made it this far proves that you are a strong, good person. And a person as strong and good as you is definitly worth keeping around.
About the cutting, when I first read it, I just wanted to scream..."NOO" But I understand. I don't know what to say to you about that because no matter what people tell me, I used to do it anyway.
Please don't keep any of this to yourself. Talk to other people than just typing it on here. While typing here may get rid of some of it, you need to talk to a real person. Call at hotline like Boo_Radley suggested, talk to friends.
If you need someone to vent to, I am here, well internet wise anyway.
Please realize that life is worth living, and if you decide it isn't, just remember that if you did kill yourself, you will regret it. Whatever you believe in, or if you believe in nothing at all, killing yourself will only bring you a step down from what you are already experiencing.
Take care
Life isn't always easy, it's hard and the fact that you feel like total shit and have made it this far proves that you are a strong, good person. And a person as strong and good as you is definitly worth keeping around.
About the cutting, when I first read it, I just wanted to scream..."NOO" But I understand. I don't know what to say to you about that because no matter what people tell me, I used to do it anyway.
Please don't keep any of this to yourself. Talk to other people than just typing it on here. While typing here may get rid of some of it, you need to talk to a real person. Call at hotline like Boo_Radley suggested, talk to friends.
If you need someone to vent to, I am here, well internet wise anyway.
Please realize that life is worth living, and if you decide it isn't, just remember that if you did kill yourself, you will regret it. Whatever you believe in, or if you believe in nothing at all, killing yourself will only bring you a step down from what you are already experiencing.
Take care