Today was better than most. I even saw my ex wife and I cried like a baby but I was able to cope a little better than normal (I didn't cut). I'm just so upset that she had someone waiting before she told me she was leaving me. I'm still not over it. I really just want to find that one person that I can love and will love me back without any conditions. Doesn't seem like too much to ask, does it. oh well I miss sleeping next to someone, I miss hugging someone, I miss running my fingers through her hair, I miss cuddling under a freshly dried blanket and watching bad tv. I miss conversation, and I miss sex. 