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I tripped and then got drunk the next night. Two days after my last episode with Robotussin, I drank another bottle. We went porn shopping and then midnight bowling. A friend and I each stole a pair of bowling shoes as we tripped, and we had a lot of fun.

Last night, we drank a shitload...I think I had 16 shots...or 18, I'm not sure. My brother drank a lot too, but he's massively sick now...which is probably good. I don't want him becoming a drunk on my account.

The biggest thing that happened last night is, well, I made out with my best friend's little sister. She's liked me forever, and I've always had a little thing for her, but it's so pure that I knew nothing could ever happen. It's the sad kind of crush because I love her so much as a 'sister' that I know a relationship would be along the lines of marriage...not something a college guy and a high school girl should mess with.

I feel my eyes cloud over with a deep regret when I look at her -- not because of the making out -- we had cuddled and stuff before. I just regret that the situation is not different. I'm always the nice guy. I'm not supposed to be the heartbreaker...I don't know. I like her too much, as lame as it may sound, and the sexual tension between us has been around for so many years. In a different time and place, we would be in love, but here and now we can't do it.