effstop

ahhh, journal entry again. i need to build my SQL server at home and build the web frontend for it. seriously. blah.

anyways, so yeah. its only 1209, and im fucking tired as fucking fuck.

hung out with the boys upstairs playing poker, and talkin shit. good times. i think i consumed a grand total of 4,000 carbs today. i was hungry.

i've been so blah lately, and i don't know why. maybe this hot ass summer is getting to me. i come home from work and i'm seriously exhausted. i just want to crash, and never wake up, because it would take too much energy. i don't know how much longer i can stay on this hamster wheel of a life. every day is a repeat of the day before. if i don't get my engine done soon, im going to fucking lose it. i need a fucking vacation, and i need to go see kellie. seriously.

i think i just need to lay down and cry. it's been awhile since i've done it, and it might be time.

um, so ringer came up with an idea. pose a question in your journal. im so un-witty and/or creative, my question will suck balls. since it seems sex has driven my thought process for the last few years, we'll keep that theme.

if you could choose to have really good mind blowing sex once a month, or decent, ok sex once a day, which would you choose?

fuck. i can't even answer my own question........