effigyofaltruism

Wow...today I spoke with a girl I hadn't spoken to in ages. I hadn't realized how much I missed talkin to her until I finally did. She was there with meh while I was going through this whole phase of wondering what the hell could possibly be wrong with meh. She was fucking awesome to me and helped me out when no one else seemed...
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Wednesdays usually suck major ass, but today was alright. I got some things that I ordered in the mail that I really needed and now I get to use them and shit. Weee...I'm also in an oddly hyper mood today. It was weird though. This morning I wasn't taking shit from anyone. Oh and this girl that hit on me the day before saw me...
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For a Monday, this day wasn't all too bad. These last couple of days have actually been alright. Nothing to complain about...nothing to really say cept that I am damn glad to be me today. Well, let me go back to fantasizing about a certain red-head again....*drool*

Well I was jipped royally last night >.< Man I couldn't control myself for most of the night. I dont think I got more than an hours worth of sleep. All I could think about was taking the closest woman I could find and ravaging her all night long, flipping her over, watching how far I could enter her form and even exploring with my...
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Um well I had an interesting night yesterday. In any case, today is fucking cold. I really do need to do something about these windows because they are starting to piss me off...pssh letting wind get through them...how dare they! Well, I'll be here for most of the day...just contemplating, doing stuff, whatever I can do to keep myself busy cuz I know what will...
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Not sure about what is going on with me but I'm doing alright. things seem to be working out and then sometimes they dont seem to have worked out at all. Anyway, I have come to the conclusion that I am in love with someone...it kind of feels weird in some way but when I think about it its not surprising. Last night helped me...
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Well, it has been an interesting couple of days. Not complaining though. Wouldn't have changed anything that happened though I would have loved to prevent some of them. I'm doing well now. Had an interview today and got practically mauled by my entire department cuz they were all thinking that I am going to leave. Dun matter cuz I AM going to leave, even if...
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Ever feel like killing someone you dont even know? LOL That is how I feel right now...nuff said. S'all good though. Grrrrrrr

I dont know whats wrong with me today. I'm happy and sad at the same time. God I hate this. I'm used to my emotions fluctuating but damn...*sigh* Oh well...gonna go involve myself in something to distract.

I've never noticed this until recently. I can be really selfish with alot of things. Sometimes I dont even need to be or should be and yet I am. I tend to automatically link my emotions without even the slightest of thoughts. I put myself out there without even the slightest hesitation. I'm not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing...
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