effie_clair

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P.S. I'm so sick that it's sick. It seems to have started while I was in Las Vegas and has progressively gotten gross. I thought it was strictly allergen-related but as of right now I have an intermittent fever, a hitch in my breath, a nose that is constantly dripping, a throat ravaged as though I'd been wantonly gargling razor blades and my voice is crackly and has a limited range of less than an octave before it starts cracking like a pubescent boy's... It's kind of sexy sounding but nonetheless unwelcome.
I can't even cry. I woke up this morning to feeling like shit and my natural reaction was to let out a sort of sob which sounded like a wild hare coughing whilst being put through a blender...
which of course caused me to have a little bit of a "moaning 'bout it" tantrum in which I desperately attempted to sob without being interrupted by crackling, auto-tune voice...
it didn't work out.
I ended up yelling (it came out as a high pitched, balloon-evacuating-air sound) at nothing in particular and sobbing inwardly at my frustration.
I'm a big baby about it.

I don't deal well with being sick. I want to take a thousand sleeping pills and doze through this snotty, coughing hell.

God-dammit.