efficacy

I've lost everything I ever used to look forward to at the end of the day. All I have left is work, so I guess work is what I shall do. I'll sleep ... work out maybe.. and save my paychecks for happier times.. but right now I cant enjoy life.. its impossible.. I need my girl..

Maybe I'll move on.. maybe not... abstinance has always worked for me before... or maybe this time I'll be a whore.. ..it would be a shame to waste all the kinky sex toys on celibacy.. so maybe the second is best...

I'm getting a sweet new 800 square foot apartment all to myself.. as i guess i mentioned before.. but I was really looking forward to having guests over to enjoy it with me.. doesnt seem like thats gonna happen.. ..

i dont even know what i'm rambling about.. my mind jumps back and forth all the time now.. ..but with only one focus.. that everything else revolves around..