eevie

in ten minutes, it's officially the 5th of march.

my flight for Tokyo leaves on the 6th of march.


i'm having trouble even comprehending this right now. i've never been on a plane by myself, let alone to any foreign country where i don't speak the language, let alone ASIA where the language isn't even remotely similar... oh my gosh. i'm. tripping. balls. not literally (at least at the moment), but i am definitely freaking out a bit. in a good way. it's nerve-wracking, but only in a way that's indicative of the massive anticipation preceding all of the unknowns of everything that could or could not happen between march 6th-16th. TEN FUCKING DAYS. whoa.

it's. going. to be. A-MAZE-ING. i'm going to take an infinite amount of pictures. i'll be in bouncing around from Kyoto to Hiroshima to Tokyo, seeing all sorts of temples and landmarks and artifacts and traditional things and museums and ahhhh...... INCREDIBLE things. i intend to be spiritually touched and potentially changed by my surroundings and experiences. i hope to expand my interest in Buddhist philosophy tenfold. i really hope to participate in a tea ceremony. and then when the spiritual and independent part of my trip winds down, i'll be taking the train (which, by the way, i consider one of the most romantic forms of travel) back to Tokyo to spend the rest of my trip with a beautiful, intelligent, polyperfect man who hails from India, but resides in an apartment complex in the city. he's been planning out the perfect weekend, and i'm absolutely thrilled to see what he has in store for me for an authentic Japanese experience! not to mention i'm just thrilled to spend time with him... tensions exploded between us on the last night we'd spend together in spring break in Jamaica... and i'm definitely anxious to see how our chemistry reacts with this second rendezvous . ohhh and he has just THE most beautiful eyes! absolutely mesmerizing... I've never seen an Indian person with anything other than brown eyes, and i must say that the combination of the pale green eyes with the richer brown skin is completely breathtaking. he makes my heart beat really fast

oh man. i'm floored right now. i wish i had words to even begin to describe this sea of emotions that is engulfing my heart in various waves at various moments.
but it's all good vibes.
great vibes.
actually, magnificent, luminescent vibes.


it's funny how sometimes life can begin to crash and burn in an uncontrollable downward spiral...




then, when it feels that you are weakest and most vulnerable to being reshaped as a human being, when it feels you are ready, lift you up in incredible, almost divine ways. but divine wouldn't be the word that i would be most comfortable using to describe such fluctuations. because it's all just the natural order of the universe. and this isn't divine, it's simply inherent. but we're such fortunate, multi-dimensional creatures that we can recognize the perplexity and inevitability of it all and be humbled and spiritually freed.


i saw my favorite response to the [religion:] category on facebook today.
religion: i believe in people.

amen.