eeek_the_kat

I think my body has actually gotten to the point of rejecting sleep completely. I fell asleep for 30 minutes earlier only to wake up and not be able to fall back asleep. I have been laying in bed for about 5 hours hoping to doze off, but it is simply a failed wish.

in the quiet of the night
i seek vainly for peace
but not sleep comes
it hasn't for weeks
i lay awake endlessly
praying for it to arrive
but it stays away from me
all the while it teases and lies
it tells me if i lay down
it will come and take me
to the land where wishes are true
and i dream that i am free
free to be who i want
no society to judge
but my grip on reality
simply will not budge
so i stare at the ceiling
and wonder why
won't sleep come to me
i silently cry
i've tried everything i know
but still i lay awake
if this doesn't end soon
i'm afraid my mind will break
i think it may already have
but i can't truly be sure
for i am not thinking clearly
and for that sleep is the cure
so how does one determine
if they have lost their mind
when what they need to tell them
is the one thing they can't find