edwin

My team won its' 1st softball game yesterday. We are now 1-3 for the year. I went 3 for 3 with 2 walks and scored 4 times in a 19-7 win (my cumulative season stats are to the left). Like last week, after playing softball there were another 18 holes of golf. I played quite well considering I stink. I'm giddy about all of this but sunburned again from all that sun exposure... however not nearly as bad as last time. It's beginning to feel like on Sundays I get a weekly burning. I meant no religious connotation to that sentence either.

I'm going to a baseball game Friday night, and a hockey party on Saturday before playing softball and golf again next Sunday. It seems like I'm getting out of the house more and shedding my hermitary tendencies. The reason sports is bringing me out of my lair is simply because it's the only thing I can do with my friends who are predominently male. Of course I can also go to rock N roll shows and play serious video games with them, but I'm just not into those things like I once might have been.

I'd love to find a really nice female person to do these types of things with and possibly other things, or new things too. It seems like every female I meet lately is taken or a little on the mean side.

With someone who is taken, I flip an internal switch and keep conversation and behavior light and harmless. I've never ever tried to speak inappropriately with someone in a situation like that. I don't think that way. It doesn't bother me. I do not want the things I've never had and cannot have. It's not logical.

But when they aren't taken but aren't the nicest people, that can be quite frustrating. I'm a big kid who is passionate and sensitive. I can be dissuaded by negativity or rudeness. I realize I'm a bit of a flake, but I am nice and considerate and if someone else is not respectful of that I will bail out of there like a fighter pilot goin down and ejecting.

I want to meet a really nice woman. I meet so many people who are material and petty, or immature and insensitive, or even catty or vain. I find as I get older looks aren't everything as they once were. I find little things turn me on, random looks, the way someone speaks, the way a person's eyes light up when they discuss something they are passionate about. You know silly things like that. But above all else, a person who is warm, real, generous and simply nice is my biggest turn on lately.

I know they are out there. I want to find one and treat her like gold. I don't know any other way, and I confess I am so set in my ways.