I rode my new bike into work today. As I mentioned a few entries ago after my bike accident, I quickly bought another, albeit cheap bike. After a week and a half to digest it, the new bike sucks... lol. But hey, what should one expect for $50. This week I buy a $200 monitor, spend $110 on 2 shirts, $10 to see a crappy movie, and I only drop $50 on a bike. Well, I suppose it pays (pun) to be at least a little fiscally responsible sometimes. This bike has maybe 2 out of it's supposed 15 gears working, the brakes kick in when my Reeboks touch the street, and the seat makes my butt pine for my old hard plastic Knight Rider big wheel from a few decades ago when I used to pretend to be Hasselhoff... Michael look out!
But I'm not here tonight to do bike and big wheel material. I'm here because I feel sad. As I was saying earlier, I rode my bike into work this morning and as I passed the spot where my accident occured I saw something that had a profound impact on me all day. There I saw on the street the remains of a cat that had been hit by a car within the last 24 hours. I hate hate hate to see dead animals, especially mammals. Just looking at it made my heart rise into my throat. I was overcome by sadness faster than fast. But when I caught the lifeless eyes of the poor creature I had to turn away because my eyes began to tear up. Thinking about it now is bringing the moment back.
It was probably an accident, just like my bike incident, but I still can't help feeling flooded with waves of emotions. I can't get its' face out of my head. I swear to you, that if I ran into a genie tonight, I'd use a whole wish to being that feline back.
I wonder if this is why I live like a hermit. I ponder if this is why I avoid people. I'm overcome by emotion so easily, and I am built so sensitively that it's very hard sometimes to see so much pain, so much wrong. I confess to you that it's made me downright appreciate of pretty things this evening and you all look so lovely tonight. I just wanted to tell you.
But I'm not here tonight to do bike and big wheel material. I'm here because I feel sad. As I was saying earlier, I rode my bike into work this morning and as I passed the spot where my accident occured I saw something that had a profound impact on me all day. There I saw on the street the remains of a cat that had been hit by a car within the last 24 hours. I hate hate hate to see dead animals, especially mammals. Just looking at it made my heart rise into my throat. I was overcome by sadness faster than fast. But when I caught the lifeless eyes of the poor creature I had to turn away because my eyes began to tear up. Thinking about it now is bringing the moment back.
It was probably an accident, just like my bike incident, but I still can't help feeling flooded with waves of emotions. I can't get its' face out of my head. I swear to you, that if I ran into a genie tonight, I'd use a whole wish to being that feline back.
I wonder if this is why I live like a hermit. I ponder if this is why I avoid people. I'm overcome by emotion so easily, and I am built so sensitively that it's very hard sometimes to see so much pain, so much wrong. I confess to you that it's made me downright appreciate of pretty things this evening and you all look so lovely tonight. I just wanted to tell you.
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I feel the lump of moral qualm rising in my throat.
you are quite the sensitive man, but that is a good thing. of course, others could likely benefit from your sensitivity, were you to join them. there are probably many who would be pleased to have you around to feel with/through.
of course, they must have good taste in music.