Things have been kind of weird lately. I think I've figured out why I've been feeling pressure in my head and why I've been woozy and out of it. I think I've figured it out because during the last 2 days my nose has gotten stuffy and the discomfort has primarily moved to the bridge of my nose. So I think I have a sinus bug, infection or something like that. It doesn't explain everything, but it explains the head stuff I am worried about. There's still a level of stress and nerves but it almost seems secondary to the sinus thing. It's really kicked in these last few days and today I feel so lethargic and weak because of it. I'm beginning a combination of fluids and rest and we'll see what happens. I don't have any real plans until Saturday when my football team plays again.
In other sports news I had the opportunity to play some street hockey on Sunday before I started to feel ill. I haven't played pick up street hockey in about 15 years. It took me some time to feel comfortable doing certain things but in the end I was feeling pretty good about how I was playing and I even scored a goal! The hardest part much like any sport I play was my stamina. I've got to improve my stamina.
I have a little more than a month here at this apartment. I still don't have a new place yet. In fact I haven't really been looking either but that is going to change soon. I have the money for the move set aside so now the task to find a decent place and figure out a bigger question. My mom just got out of the hospital after a 5 day stay. She went in because she's been dealing with stress and anxiety (sound familiar?) and kind of broke down. She left my sister behind in their place for 5 days by herself. This wouldn't be a problem in most households but my sister is mildly retarded. Luckily she's highly functional so she can do some things, but it's really not a good idea for her to be left alone for any amount of time. She doesn't understand money too well, doesn't know how to take it out of the bank and things like that. I spoke to her on the phone each day and made sure she was okay and didn't need anything. My mom and sister have really been struggling lately. They lost their cable service a few months ago and then 2 weeks ago they lost their heat. My mom has never been good with money and since my dad died 10 years ago she's always looked to me. Sometimes it annoys me that I have to watch over 2 other people and have to help them a lot when I am barely getting by on my own. Sometimes I feel like it's hard for me to live my own life because of them. What else can you do with family though? I want to help them. I think I'm going to try to find a house, a duplex that I can move in on one floor and my family on the other. Then I can be closer and help them and keep an eye on them and help them budget money and things like that. It could help me too. I wouldn't have to worry so much about how they are, I could use her laundry machines instead of going to the Laundromat and maybe I can split cable with them too and pay half as much as I pay now. I dunno, I feel like I don't have many choices as things get worse and worse for them.
This time I guess I'm using this blog to really get things out. I need some more fluids so this is all for now.
In other sports news I had the opportunity to play some street hockey on Sunday before I started to feel ill. I haven't played pick up street hockey in about 15 years. It took me some time to feel comfortable doing certain things but in the end I was feeling pretty good about how I was playing and I even scored a goal! The hardest part much like any sport I play was my stamina. I've got to improve my stamina.
I have a little more than a month here at this apartment. I still don't have a new place yet. In fact I haven't really been looking either but that is going to change soon. I have the money for the move set aside so now the task to find a decent place and figure out a bigger question. My mom just got out of the hospital after a 5 day stay. She went in because she's been dealing with stress and anxiety (sound familiar?) and kind of broke down. She left my sister behind in their place for 5 days by herself. This wouldn't be a problem in most households but my sister is mildly retarded. Luckily she's highly functional so she can do some things, but it's really not a good idea for her to be left alone for any amount of time. She doesn't understand money too well, doesn't know how to take it out of the bank and things like that. I spoke to her on the phone each day and made sure she was okay and didn't need anything. My mom and sister have really been struggling lately. They lost their cable service a few months ago and then 2 weeks ago they lost their heat. My mom has never been good with money and since my dad died 10 years ago she's always looked to me. Sometimes it annoys me that I have to watch over 2 other people and have to help them a lot when I am barely getting by on my own. Sometimes I feel like it's hard for me to live my own life because of them. What else can you do with family though? I want to help them. I think I'm going to try to find a house, a duplex that I can move in on one floor and my family on the other. Then I can be closer and help them and keep an eye on them and help them budget money and things like that. It could help me too. I wouldn't have to worry so much about how they are, I could use her laundry machines instead of going to the Laundromat and maybe I can split cable with them too and pay half as much as I pay now. I dunno, I feel like I don't have many choices as things get worse and worse for them.
This time I guess I'm using this blog to really get things out. I need some more fluids so this is all for now.