Hey everyone. Here is a lot of randomness because it's Monday morning, I'm working on 5 hours of sleep and my mind is mush.
-As I staggered into work this morning I did something I hadn't done since October I slipped and fell. When it snows I have a rule; I don't shovel until it stops snowing. Of course if it were to snow 5-6 feet before stopping something might have to give, but 99% of the time it never snows THAT much where I feel like shoveling just so I could go out and shovel again later that day or the next day. That makes no sense to me just shovel one time when it's stopped. This time of year when I am walking about I love it when there is bare sidewalk. Give me that or give me no shoveling at all. Today I slipped on someone's sidewalk who shoveled half way through. We may have gotten 6 inches recently and they had about 2 on their sidewalk. It was fresh snow, really soft, white, new, pretty and slippery. I'm sure since I am so sleepy this morning I didn't have the usual level of coordination and precaution walking in. I know that if I lived more than 3 blocks from work, this morning could have been a real adventure.
-I watched the Grammys last night, or should I say Grannys. I really loved about half of the musical performances. The Police were good, so was the trifecta of John Legend, Corinne Bailey Rae and John Mayer. I see they try to hip it up with graphics and combining performers and having performers play all over the building BUT they gotta get off of all the geezer performers. It's bad enough they give Grammys for "pop" music (as in popular) to Tony Bennett and Stevie Wonder and find ways to give Grammys to so many older artists, but to have a bunch of older artists perform on the show too. It was too much for me. I used to like Lionel Richie back in the day but I don't want to hear him sing Hello live on the Grammys when you can plug in someone who had a hit or is nominated for an award THIS year. I got a lot of love for Stevie Wonder and Tony Bennett, but how could you give them pop song of the year over those Nelly Furtado or Shakira joints? Admittedly, I'm no fan of popular music but I didn't even know Tony and Stevie put out a song this past year. Sometimes I wonder if anyone under 40 votes for these things. I guess I still haven't forgiven the Grammy people for giving Jethro Tull the first "Best Metal" Grammy about 15 years ago. With all this nostalgia and all these musical icons on this year's show, it really makes me wonder just how nostalgic next year's show will be being that's it will be the 50th Grammy awards show. To close my Grammy thoughts I'm really glad the Dixie Chicks won 5 of them. They were so unfairly punished for dissing George Bush at that concert 4 years ago and I greatly applaud them for their perseverance.
-I'm really excited because I'm going to Cleveland in a few weeks. Wait, I know what you are thinking excited to go to Cleveland? I'm going there to see Kevin Smith speak. If you are a fan of his movies and haven't seen any clips from these things you gotta check out myspace video or youtube. His chats with the fans are priceless. He tells humorous stories about the celebrity people he encounters (his story about Prince is gold), projects he worked on and I think he answers many questions from the crowd as well. Kevin Smith may be one of the most down to earth celebrities any of us will ever meet. If I'm lucky, maybe I'll get to meet him too. I'm bringing my camera and my notepad. The day is Friday March 2nd I can't wait.
-Despite the cold and snow I can feel the spring getting closer. One of the ways I feel this is because signups for spring sports are happening in the next few weeks. I can't wait for that either. I'm going to play on 3 softball teams and 2 more teams that will be either football, soccer or volleyball. I can't wait to be really active again and to also start losing some serious poundage.
-In the negative end of things the company that I work for looks more and more like it's dying a slow painful death. The problems are at the top and bottom. The people at the top can't think about things in a modern way and the people at the bottom are unmotivated slackers with low morale. From top to bottom the company is in trouble. There's nothing I can do to prevent this. All I can do is to keep doing what I do and start getting my resume ready in case I have to start looking for something else soon. I knew this day would come but I've dreaded it for so long because of my social issues. Starting over at a new place around a whole new group of people is never easy for me in fact it's very difficult.
-My lease at my current apartment runs out in about 3 and a half months. I still don't know what I'm doing yet. Perhaps some of the indecision comes from the job thing. All I know is that I should take care of one or the other sometime in the next 2 months, because if late May arrives and I'm still trying to figure out job and home, that's going to be a recipe for anxiety attacks and emotional disaster.
-The last negative is that Valentine's Day will be here very soon. I've only had 1 significant relationship occurring while Valentine's Day has passed in my whole life so I'm used to being lonely on that day but it doesn't stop me from feeling sad. I already feel the sadness starting to fall like the light rain many hours before the hurricane. I may write a gloomy blog on that day but for the most part I won't want to see or talk to anyone. On the 15th, the wind and rain will fade quickly leaving bright sunshine to reflect on the damage the storm caused the day before and then I will begin the cleanup efforts. That is not to mock people who have gone through a real cleanup effort or were hit by a real storm, but inside the loneliness and sadness swirls within and I don't know how else to describe it. So please don't revoke my poetic license.
So this is me today. This is what's on my mind. Tomorrow will be different and so will the next day. I hope everyone out there is well.
-As I staggered into work this morning I did something I hadn't done since October I slipped and fell. When it snows I have a rule; I don't shovel until it stops snowing. Of course if it were to snow 5-6 feet before stopping something might have to give, but 99% of the time it never snows THAT much where I feel like shoveling just so I could go out and shovel again later that day or the next day. That makes no sense to me just shovel one time when it's stopped. This time of year when I am walking about I love it when there is bare sidewalk. Give me that or give me no shoveling at all. Today I slipped on someone's sidewalk who shoveled half way through. We may have gotten 6 inches recently and they had about 2 on their sidewalk. It was fresh snow, really soft, white, new, pretty and slippery. I'm sure since I am so sleepy this morning I didn't have the usual level of coordination and precaution walking in. I know that if I lived more than 3 blocks from work, this morning could have been a real adventure.
-I watched the Grammys last night, or should I say Grannys. I really loved about half of the musical performances. The Police were good, so was the trifecta of John Legend, Corinne Bailey Rae and John Mayer. I see they try to hip it up with graphics and combining performers and having performers play all over the building BUT they gotta get off of all the geezer performers. It's bad enough they give Grammys for "pop" music (as in popular) to Tony Bennett and Stevie Wonder and find ways to give Grammys to so many older artists, but to have a bunch of older artists perform on the show too. It was too much for me. I used to like Lionel Richie back in the day but I don't want to hear him sing Hello live on the Grammys when you can plug in someone who had a hit or is nominated for an award THIS year. I got a lot of love for Stevie Wonder and Tony Bennett, but how could you give them pop song of the year over those Nelly Furtado or Shakira joints? Admittedly, I'm no fan of popular music but I didn't even know Tony and Stevie put out a song this past year. Sometimes I wonder if anyone under 40 votes for these things. I guess I still haven't forgiven the Grammy people for giving Jethro Tull the first "Best Metal" Grammy about 15 years ago. With all this nostalgia and all these musical icons on this year's show, it really makes me wonder just how nostalgic next year's show will be being that's it will be the 50th Grammy awards show. To close my Grammy thoughts I'm really glad the Dixie Chicks won 5 of them. They were so unfairly punished for dissing George Bush at that concert 4 years ago and I greatly applaud them for their perseverance.
-I'm really excited because I'm going to Cleveland in a few weeks. Wait, I know what you are thinking excited to go to Cleveland? I'm going there to see Kevin Smith speak. If you are a fan of his movies and haven't seen any clips from these things you gotta check out myspace video or youtube. His chats with the fans are priceless. He tells humorous stories about the celebrity people he encounters (his story about Prince is gold), projects he worked on and I think he answers many questions from the crowd as well. Kevin Smith may be one of the most down to earth celebrities any of us will ever meet. If I'm lucky, maybe I'll get to meet him too. I'm bringing my camera and my notepad. The day is Friday March 2nd I can't wait.
-Despite the cold and snow I can feel the spring getting closer. One of the ways I feel this is because signups for spring sports are happening in the next few weeks. I can't wait for that either. I'm going to play on 3 softball teams and 2 more teams that will be either football, soccer or volleyball. I can't wait to be really active again and to also start losing some serious poundage.
-In the negative end of things the company that I work for looks more and more like it's dying a slow painful death. The problems are at the top and bottom. The people at the top can't think about things in a modern way and the people at the bottom are unmotivated slackers with low morale. From top to bottom the company is in trouble. There's nothing I can do to prevent this. All I can do is to keep doing what I do and start getting my resume ready in case I have to start looking for something else soon. I knew this day would come but I've dreaded it for so long because of my social issues. Starting over at a new place around a whole new group of people is never easy for me in fact it's very difficult.
-My lease at my current apartment runs out in about 3 and a half months. I still don't know what I'm doing yet. Perhaps some of the indecision comes from the job thing. All I know is that I should take care of one or the other sometime in the next 2 months, because if late May arrives and I'm still trying to figure out job and home, that's going to be a recipe for anxiety attacks and emotional disaster.
-The last negative is that Valentine's Day will be here very soon. I've only had 1 significant relationship occurring while Valentine's Day has passed in my whole life so I'm used to being lonely on that day but it doesn't stop me from feeling sad. I already feel the sadness starting to fall like the light rain many hours before the hurricane. I may write a gloomy blog on that day but for the most part I won't want to see or talk to anyone. On the 15th, the wind and rain will fade quickly leaving bright sunshine to reflect on the damage the storm caused the day before and then I will begin the cleanup efforts. That is not to mock people who have gone through a real cleanup effort or were hit by a real storm, but inside the loneliness and sadness swirls within and I don't know how else to describe it. So please don't revoke my poetic license.
So this is me today. This is what's on my mind. Tomorrow will be different and so will the next day. I hope everyone out there is well.