edenkitty

So you want a proper update eh? ... Ok! No worries.

Life is good here in oregon. the weather is cold and rainy, i got soaked to the skin yesterday. Actually I would say that even my insides got wet, lets go with soaked to the bone. It was awesome.

My friend Kerrie has had a friend Vicky? Vicie? Vickie? however she spells it, she's been visiting. For sake of spelling, I shall call her "dirty hippy," mind you she isn't dirty, she's just a tree hugging, dirt worshiping, PETA loving, awesomely weird, freaky chick. So in other words, my kinda lady! She was awesome to hang with. We took her to my favorite spots in Oregon. The Falls, The Coast, The Market. Pretty much, I did nothing but drive around and chill out.

So I made a bucket for my head, check my pictures if you are interested. I like it.. it's all cute and biucket shaped.

lets see..... hmmm.... I like celery.

Life has been really phenominal really. I am moving at the end of July into my aunt's house, we will have a fun time I think. I am getting a kiln soon. SQUEEEE. I have a job. I start on the 20th. I am going to fairy worlds, SQUEEEEE. I love my girly girls I hang with.

I feel like all this turmoil and hurt and evil is actually not so bad really. I think this is all part of becoming the me I really am. there is no reason for me to be as miserable as I was. Honestly. How many happy entries did I make. How often was I sad or tired or just plain too damn bitchy to write. well, I guess you wouldn't know, cause I didn't write it down now did I? But still. There were so many days I was freaked out, when I was just to much of a mess to inflict myself on anyone. Now I am sitting here, and it's just me, well Luna too. But still, it's just me and It's all going to be ok. I can finally become the me I really am inside.

If I want, I can do whatever. If I don't want to, I don't have to. If I want to eat hardboiled eggs and bubble gum ice cream, no one will stop me. It's amazing. It really is. I feel so free. Don't get me wrong. Last Afternoon I curled up into Josh's lap and cried, I soaked his shirt, and was snotty faced and ugly for a while. But he held me, and told me that it would all work out, for once, i believe it.

I believe in my heart that I can do this. I believe that some one will love me again, and I can truly love them for the first time. I believe that abundance is just a hop skip and a jump away. I believe that the world is not as bad as I think it is. I believe that I am going to be the most wonderful me I can be.

ooooh, sidebar, my sex life is much improved. I have had the most amazing experiences this past week, but that is a tale for another day.

Now.. off to snoop in your journals! I love snooping!