Wow. ok. just wow.
How's your week been.. mine has been fucking surreal.
So my husband and I are getting a divorce. We are both ok. we were both just really miserable and we are good people who deserve to be happy but can't manage to make each other happy. We both think we rebounds that went way to far.
I just got done talking with him online. I really want this all to work out for both of us. It's just really scary right now. I don't know what to do.
I have never really taken care of just me. There was always someone else that I was taking care of, Kenny, Ramone, Christine, Amber, My bevvy of random people, Victor, Josh even to a certain extent. For the moment. it's just me, I like it that way you know It's kind of new and exciting. I really am looking forward to working. not working for someoene else's dreams but for mine. MINE MINE MINE MINE MINE! Yeah I know.. I'm greedy.
Life just isn't worth being miserable in. I really appreciate that Victor understands that. I can't believe how relieved I am to not have to worry about all this anymore. It's weird. You go into the grocery store, and you want apples. Well see, if you have a significant other, chances are they will eat the apples, So you buy more than you need, and they aren't all the perfect apple. Naturally, the other person eats the perfect apple... and you don't get that one. Now, If i buy an apple, that perfect apple is all mine, and I only have to buy one. One perfect apple, not 5 mediocre apples and one perfect one.
It's not really about apples people. Oh Speaking of which... Not really speaking of apples or anything in particular... I get to keep the cat.
She went apeshit on him when he came to get his stuff.
I know funny huh!
Well I think I am not going to leave the site I think i will bit the damn bullet and buy the year membership with what little money I have right now and not worry about it. I will find a job.
I will have a yard sale.
I will consign my clothes.
I will be a better person, and so will he.
If he tries to make a move on Kerrie. oh god help me.
I love you all still. I will take a gander at your journals when I wake up this morning.
How's your week been.. mine has been fucking surreal.
So my husband and I are getting a divorce. We are both ok. we were both just really miserable and we are good people who deserve to be happy but can't manage to make each other happy. We both think we rebounds that went way to far.
I just got done talking with him online. I really want this all to work out for both of us. It's just really scary right now. I don't know what to do.
I have never really taken care of just me. There was always someone else that I was taking care of, Kenny, Ramone, Christine, Amber, My bevvy of random people, Victor, Josh even to a certain extent. For the moment. it's just me, I like it that way you know It's kind of new and exciting. I really am looking forward to working. not working for someoene else's dreams but for mine. MINE MINE MINE MINE MINE! Yeah I know.. I'm greedy.
Life just isn't worth being miserable in. I really appreciate that Victor understands that. I can't believe how relieved I am to not have to worry about all this anymore. It's weird. You go into the grocery store, and you want apples. Well see, if you have a significant other, chances are they will eat the apples, So you buy more than you need, and they aren't all the perfect apple. Naturally, the other person eats the perfect apple... and you don't get that one. Now, If i buy an apple, that perfect apple is all mine, and I only have to buy one. One perfect apple, not 5 mediocre apples and one perfect one.
It's not really about apples people. Oh Speaking of which... Not really speaking of apples or anything in particular... I get to keep the cat.
She went apeshit on him when he came to get his stuff.
I know funny huh!
Well I think I am not going to leave the site I think i will bit the damn bullet and buy the year membership with what little money I have right now and not worry about it. I will find a job.
I will have a yard sale.
I will consign my clothes.
I will be a better person, and so will he.
If he tries to make a move on Kerrie. oh god help me.
I love you all still. I will take a gander at your journals when I wake up this morning.
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hope your ok and everything works out...mail me if you want to I think I understand totally what your going through.
xx
hearts-KLM