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So I finally watched Gypsy 83... I was really bored for the first part of the movie, that stopped. It was really good, but I can see why it wasn't a huge hit, It really was pretty boring for a while. Oh well, guess sometimes it takes the amish to bring some levity to the plight of the misunderstood. Maybe that's what I need my very own amish boy on rumspringa. That would be fun, maybe. I could teach him about buttons and he could fuck me in a rest area bathroom. Yeah, maybe not.

If you didn't know, Mt. St. Helen's erupted again. Here's the whole story, Well, I am sure there will be more later about how it happened.. what's really going on. But hey, it was pretty awesome watching the sunset and the mountain erupting. Scary though. I am sure everything will come together, maybe the dome is growing. MAYBE liquid hot magma will take over tacoma! Maybe I need to get out more.

It's a miracle, I can see the floor in the living room. My bathroom doesn't smell like cat badness. Life is sweet. So I am working on losing weight. A hopeless ploy, but I'll work on it.

My grandmother called, she didn't have to say it. I've been ignoring her. I feel horrible about it. It's just easier for me when I don't talk to her or my family. I am able to ignore that there is a huge hole where my Mom should be. I know she isn't gone forever, and that she will be back. With the other holes though it just hurts so much when she isn't there. I feel them so acutely. I want everyday to be a real girl. I know, so fucking pinocchio. It's real, though, the feeling... that whole big missing part of my soul. I feel super crap-tastic about me ignoring grandma. She is so important to me but I put MY feelings before her. Just like I do all the time. I always put myself before everyone. I'm selfish and mean. Blargh. Ok, so I'm done with the rant.

Now see if I had a normal family I could make up for this horrible behaviour easily, but no. My Grandmother is leaving for Ireland, with my aunt Pat. Dammit, it's ok. I will have the chance to redeem myself because of this stupid unseasonally warm weather. I will take care of her precious gesneriads. YAY! i really like feeling like I am useful to her. She won't let me clean her house for her, but she really doesn't have a choice when she's gone. I really love cleaning her house, it's just so beautiful and wonderful.

I got something awesome in the mail today. See there is this great group the Crafty group. Oh hell yeah, it's the awesome, we do swaps every once in a while. Well this was my second swap, I made some pretty jewelry. In return, I got this HUGE awesome blanket made of fleece. To make life better, LEOPORD fleece. See I have this whole leopord thing, I like me some leapord. In fact, I used to only wear shoes made of fuzzy leopord, pretty lame, I know get over it. But still, it is awesome and I am realy thrilled about my binkie. Luna is pretty damn thrilled too. She loves it, I think she may have taken a shine to it... by shine I mean that She won't even fucking get off it.

So I am off to watch Jersey Girl, I have never seen it and it is the only Kevin Smith movie that doesn't live in my collection. I really hate that picture of me. I guess I should change it. But really i just feel like going to bed, I just hate doing it alone. Kinda like masturbation just not worth it without someone to help it along. Dammit the stupid movie is making me cry. Well, I guess I should ask some questions huh?


1. Kevin Smith... which side of the genius/insane line is he on?

2. So if you could choose... which Buffy character would you be, if Reality chose which would it be?

3. Are you happy or sad about the release of Martha Stewart?

4. Do you like strudel? Wanna come over to eat some yummy peach strudel?

5. Did you know that southernbelle made me the coolest blanket in the world?


I'm gonna go get something yummy, maybe strudel, come get some with me PLEASE! i'm boring lonely, and selfish! I'm a laugh a minute.