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I have to figure out this whole what i want to do with my life thing. You see i have been in this limbo state for about a year now where i just don't care about what i am doing. I used to have a bitch ass job as a Sr. Software Engineer, but i hated it. Right now i have a cool job helping people, i love this job but it's just not what i want to do.
I have spent my whole life pleasing people. Everything i did was to make someone happy or proud. I like taking a moment of my time and just doing something kind. However, for the last four months i have been thinking about what i want. And fuck me i don't know. Ain't that a bitch. I can tell you how to make so many people smile but i have no clue about me.
I need to get this figured out by spring time cause i want to go back to school at get a few more degrees in an area where i want to work.

I have been wondering a lot about myself come of late. I was starting to worry that maybe i am getting some sort of depression or something. Then it occured to me. I have been single for 5 months. This is the first time in my life that i have been single since 6th grade. I never had time to think about me. Single, ain't that a bitch.

I think i want to be a sugar daddy to a few special girls. I think i would be very good at it. So i need to make a crap load of money so they get spoiled right.

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