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My heart and head are at war. Lately things I really want to say or do get stuck before they even get carried out. Work and class are the only constants, and even those are done reluctantly.

I am in love with life but suddenly did a 180 and I'm too scared to show it now. It's the consequences. That stupid fear of getting hurt again.

Plus I tend to love freely. But right now that's a point of conflict. My head is in denial of my heart, and rather than just let myself be, I find that I'm restraining myself to the point of being cold. Because, y'know. Showing people you care is a sign of "weakness."

How do I tell my thoughts to fuck off and concentrate on homework?

I'll just go demolish the last of this Tofutti. I think it tastes better than ice cream, but apparently my roommates don't share the sentiment. But they're wrong!