ecrivaine

Anything that is connected with fear,
a mature person should disconnect
himself from. That's how maturity comes.
Just watch all your acts, all your beliefs,
and find out whether they are based
in reality, in experience, or based in fear.
And anything based in fear
has to be dropped immediately
without a second thought.
It is your armor.

Osho

What is it I fear? Some people lately have told me my anger when super bombed is a fear of losing love. It's jealousy. It's fear of looking lame that makes me get there.
I've also had a lot of people lately tell me that they really like me. People I didn't expect it from. Looking lame should not be a fear. And I elect to not let it.
I also fear that I did it again. I destroyed something wonderful. It is probably beyond repair, because that's what I do to things: wreck them beyond repair. I need to stop worrying about the fact I wrecked it. And just accept that I did. Then I need to move on with my life. There is no going back, there is no fixing.