econstupidity

This song for the past year has been a reminder of a lot of pain and heartbreak .... yet everytime it came up on my iPod, I've only turned the volume up louder each time. Now, I finally feel that pain has been buried in the past and a new horizon has fallen.

It only seems fitting to start my new found happiness with an ending.



"Ectasy is all you need
living in the big machine now
oh you're so vain
now your world is way too fast
nothing's real and nothing lasts
and I'm aware
I'm in love but you don't care
turn your anger into lust
I'm still here but you don't trust at all
and I'll be waiting
love and sex and loneliness
take what's yours and leave the rest
so I'll survive
god it's good to be alive

I'm torn in pieces
I'm blind and waiting for
my heart is reeling
I'm blind and waiting for you

Still in love with all your sins
where you stop and I begin
and I'll be waiting
living like a house on fire
what you fear is your desire
it's hard to deal
I still love the way you feel
now this angry little girl
drowning in this petty world
oh who you run to
swallow all your bitter pills
that's what makes you beautiful
you're all or not
I don't need what you ain't got

I'm torn in pieces
I'm blind and waiting for
my heart is reeling
I'm blind and waiting for you

no I can't believe it's coming true
god it's good to be alive
and I'm still here waiting for you
no I can't believe it's coming true
I'm blind and waiting for you."

-Goo Goo Dolls Big Machine


(Oh yeah, & in other news only 2 weeks from now I'll be drinking in Colorado )