Day fifteen.
This would have been the first day of re-established contact had I not made the choice that I made.
Instead I got her reply, and it was hard to not read into it. I had to take a while. Then I read it again with a clearer heart and head, and I understood that she'd received the news as well as one could, and was caring, understanding, and respectful of my boundaries in return.
It's been a really long and emotional day already, and it's only 6:15pm.
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And now I think it's time for me to take this breakup-and-rebuild journal someplace else. She's got more access to this site than I do, and now that we've at least partially re-established communication it isn't fair to risk her noticing that I've been updating and then reading everything I've written here since then.
I'll go grey early next month, and I don't think I'll renew.
This would have been the first day of re-established contact had I not made the choice that I made.
Instead I got her reply, and it was hard to not read into it. I had to take a while. Then I read it again with a clearer heart and head, and I understood that she'd received the news as well as one could, and was caring, understanding, and respectful of my boundaries in return.
It's been a really long and emotional day already, and it's only 6:15pm.
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And now I think it's time for me to take this breakup-and-rebuild journal someplace else. She's got more access to this site than I do, and now that we've at least partially re-established communication it isn't fair to risk her noticing that I've been updating and then reading everything I've written here since then.
I'll go grey early next month, and I don't think I'll renew.