self image analysis #2:
(see yesterdays entry for more)
in regards to a good situation,
ME: "I should definietly go"
VOICE IN HEAD: "Nah, stay home"
ME:"But it will be fun"
VOICE IN HEAD:"Fuck that"
ME:"But I could stop thinking about all the bad shit from the past 8 months"
VOICE IN HEAD:"Nah, just watch tv and work, work, work"
ME:"Yeah, i won't have fun...
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(see yesterdays entry for more)
in regards to a good situation,
ME: "I should definietly go"
VOICE IN HEAD: "Nah, stay home"
ME:"But it will be fun"
VOICE IN HEAD:"Fuck that"
ME:"But I could stop thinking about all the bad shit from the past 8 months"
VOICE IN HEAD:"Nah, just watch tv and work, work, work"
ME:"Yeah, i won't have fun...
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self image analysis #1:
ME: "gosh darn it, i like me"
VOICE IN MY HEAD: "i suck"
ME: "great job"
VOICE IN MY HEAD: "you could do better"
ME: "i look good"
VOICE IN MY HEAD: "i'm hideous"
ME: "i'm pretty smart"
VOICE IN MY HEAD: "i'm a fucking idiot"
ME: "wow, maybe I am crazy."
VOICE IN MY HEAD: "yup"
ME: "gosh darn it, i like me"
VOICE IN MY HEAD: "i suck"
ME: "great job"
VOICE IN MY HEAD: "you could do better"
ME: "i look good"
VOICE IN MY HEAD: "i'm hideous"
ME: "i'm pretty smart"
VOICE IN MY HEAD: "i'm a fucking idiot"
ME: "wow, maybe I am crazy."
VOICE IN MY HEAD: "yup"
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franandzooey:
Hi. I changed my journal entry before reading your last message. You made me sad about Edie. I seriously dig that cutie. I do sleep, I slept until 1p.m. today so it will be awhile 'till I doze off tonight. It is so weird, this SG thing. I wish something like this was around when I was a younger and more ackward (you know what word I mean), I would have been a lot less lonely. 
Only I would have had all these images of sexy girls ruining my self esteem. Ya' win some ya' lose some. Get some work done. Talk to you later or tomorrow or something. f&z
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Only I would have had all these images of sexy girls ruining my self esteem. Ya' win some ya' lose some. Get some work done. Talk to you later or tomorrow or something. f&z[Edited on Nov 10, 2003 12:13AM]
estrada:
I know all too well how this fight goes.
I don't know how often I end up not doing something because something inside me says something negative.
I don't know how often I end up not doing something because something inside me says something negative.
updated pics and art
drinking latte with ameretto
saw station agent last nite
still listening to interpol
have a ton of work to do for tomorrow
have a ton of laundry to do everyday
bought a new leather car coat today
suffering ex-girlfriend blues
still need a date for christmas party (hint,hint)
am totally in love with all the wonderful people here
self image still...
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drinking latte with ameretto
saw station agent last nite
still listening to interpol
have a ton of work to do for tomorrow
have a ton of laundry to do everyday
bought a new leather car coat today
suffering ex-girlfriend blues
still need a date for christmas party (hint,hint)
am totally in love with all the wonderful people here
self image still...
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franandzooey:
Good lord. Who's that franandzooey bitch who thinks that she can take up the whole damn page. I want my turn at echobunny too. Oh wait my name is on this thing right.
vutek:
how clean do you keep your rapidographs?
finally updated "my pics" with some new pics and some artwork...
and yes, this offer still stands:
so now, who wants to be my date for my office christmas party?
I'll fly ya to philly and everything!
anyone want to spend an evening, including free flight, free food, free drinks and a few hours with a dorky, geeky, art guy?
geez, how pathetic do i...
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and yes, this offer still stands:
so now, who wants to be my date for my office christmas party?
I'll fly ya to philly and everything!
anyone want to spend an evening, including free flight, free food, free drinks and a few hours with a dorky, geeky, art guy?
geez, how pathetic do i...
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ed:
No, no, I only seem crazy when I'm in good mood. 
missprint:
Who doesn't want a date with a dorky, geeky art guy?
-Kay
Oh, your art is amazing.
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-Kay
Oh, your art is amazing.
[Edited on Nov 09, 2003 9:15AM]
i thought i was old enough to be over feeling this way, but i guess after the past 5 months i've had, and how i felt about this girl just really, really got to me...
so now, who wants to be my date for my office christmas party?
I'll fly ya to philly and everything!
anyone want to spend an evening, including free flight, free...
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thenewpope:
Hey thanks! 
ed:
Dammit, it sounds like fun, only I'll be in Cali by then. Bah. Luck in finding someone!
random update:
kill bill - liked, not loved
work - forever busy anymore
music - can't stop listening to interpol
clothes - new black leather car coat
home - leaning toward home outside philadelphia
friends - apparently invisible
halloween costume - DEVO yellow jumpsuit and red flowerpot hat
life in general - like, not love
kill bill - liked, not loved
work - forever busy anymore
music - can't stop listening to interpol
clothes - new black leather car coat
home - leaning toward home outside philadelphia
friends - apparently invisible
halloween costume - DEVO yellow jumpsuit and red flowerpot hat
life in general - like, not love
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estrada:
I haven't tried Interpol yet, but I think I may.
astrogirl3000:
your costume!!! 
i've been listening to devo since i stumbled on the appreciation thread on the boards...
i bought a smiths dvd today and am basking in morrissey/marr bliss. it really is all about that combination...
i've been listening to devo since i stumbled on the appreciation thread on the boards...
i bought a smiths dvd today and am basking in morrissey/marr bliss. it really is all about that combination...
so i need to know how to let go...
how to finally stand up and say,
"fuck it" i'm tired of feeling like my
guts are twisted...
i am just tired of putting other
peoples needs/wants first at the
expense of my own...
the latest addition to my list of things
that just arent right:
people who can't or won't committ
but still say shit...
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how to finally stand up and say,
"fuck it" i'm tired of feeling like my
guts are twisted...
i am just tired of putting other
peoples needs/wants first at the
expense of my own...
the latest addition to my list of things
that just arent right:
people who can't or won't committ
but still say shit...
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eatmoregreens:
amen
stiles:
Anyone in particular?
time for the shitstorm:
- 2 months ago car needs $600
- same day tv blows up
- 3 weeks ago a friend fails at committing suicide
- 2 days later same friend diagnosed as mentally
unstable, locked away
- 1 week ago my 35th b-day
- 1 week ago my six week old cat diagnosed with
incurable cat disease
- 5 days ago cat...
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- 2 months ago car needs $600
- same day tv blows up
- 3 weeks ago a friend fails at committing suicide
- 2 days later same friend diagnosed as mentally
unstable, locked away
- 1 week ago my 35th b-day
- 1 week ago my six week old cat diagnosed with
incurable cat disease
- 5 days ago cat...
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stiles:
Yeah, I heard about the mom news. The party was under attended, but still fun.
We all went to another party on Mascher north of girard, where some punk kid trashed my car while it was parked. He keyed 2 doors ( one reads "faggot" and another " I love dick" - good to know stupid white-trash ghetto kids still have their priorities in order) , the hood and roof, flattened one tire, bent the tailpipe, broke a tailight.
It wasn't the caprice, it was a crapped out 220,000 mile civic wagon i've been driving, so no major loss. Still aggravating, though. I think the kids were the same ones drinking a 40 when we parked, and didn't like the looks of me or Destro, from Pittsburgh group, who was with me at the time. They didn't have the balls to start shit when we were there, condidering he's linebacker-size and threatening looking.
Live and learn...
As far as the real estate thing goes, you could buy my whole setup for $340,000. Whatta deal, eh? I just got another contract signed....so let's see if this guy is more serious than the last deadbeat.
We all went to another party on Mascher north of girard, where some punk kid trashed my car while it was parked. He keyed 2 doors ( one reads "faggot" and another " I love dick" - good to know stupid white-trash ghetto kids still have their priorities in order) , the hood and roof, flattened one tire, bent the tailpipe, broke a tailight.
It wasn't the caprice, it was a crapped out 220,000 mile civic wagon i've been driving, so no major loss. Still aggravating, though. I think the kids were the same ones drinking a 40 when we parked, and didn't like the looks of me or Destro, from Pittsburgh group, who was with me at the time. They didn't have the balls to start shit when we were there, condidering he's linebacker-size and threatening looking.
Live and learn...
As far as the real estate thing goes, you could buy my whole setup for $340,000. Whatta deal, eh? I just got another contract signed....so let's see if this guy is more serious than the last deadbeat.
astrogirl3000:
how's my favorite bunny 
i hope things are going better for you.
i just saw kill bill too-it's campy fun! i love uma-she and i even have the same birthday...
*thinking happy thoughts for you*
i hope things are going better for you.
i just saw kill bill too-it's campy fun! i love uma-she and i even have the same birthday...
*thinking happy thoughts for you*
okay so i hear from this kitty that i haven't been updating enough...
and i will admit that i have been remiss in duties... (i said dooties)
so, without further ado:
- still in the market for a home
- havent seen a new movie since this
- still looking to fill the void with him
- have recieved many funny responses from here
-...
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and i will admit that i have been remiss in duties... (i said dooties)
so, without further ado:
- still in the market for a home
- havent seen a new movie since this
- still looking to fill the void with him
- have recieved many funny responses from here
-...
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astrogirl3000:
amanda peet is hot
i've been listening to echo's self titled and of course it reminds me of you
my updates have been few and far between too-my life has changed so dramatically since i moved here...
edited for belated birthday wishes and kisses
[Edited on Oct 03, 2003]
i've been listening to echo's self titled and of course it reminds me of you
my updates have been few and far between too-my life has changed so dramatically since i moved here...
edited for belated birthday wishes and kisses
[Edited on Oct 03, 2003]
demolitionkitten:
Ruckus is doing awesome! I should post some new pictures of her. She's a woman now. It'd be awwwww if we weren't waiting in the room for the vet to come take her from me to spay her when it happened though. (women!)
Don't spare the updates, Mister. I don't think you're a loser. I think you're one of my favorites ever and this is the only way I get to keep up with you!
(house across the street- still available)
Don't spare the updates, Mister. I don't think you're a loser. I think you're one of my favorites ever and this is the only way I get to keep up with you!
(house across the street- still available)
life is good right now, despite the endless curves thrown at me recently...
...in a "see what happens" phase...
Christ I hate that phase, it's almost as bad as the "I like you as a friend" phase...
why is it, you think, that when you've been involved with someone for any substantial amount of time it's the knowing it is something versus the hoping that...
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...in a "see what happens" phase...
Christ I hate that phase, it's almost as bad as the "I like you as a friend" phase...
why is it, you think, that when you've been involved with someone for any substantial amount of time it's the knowing it is something versus the hoping that...
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slinkster:
thank you!
i was last at the w+j on the 23rd.. with racer_x, helter, and melissa and other assorted people. haven't hung out with stiles for a bit. so 3 weeks ago from today. where ya there?
i was last at the w+j on the 23rd.. with racer_x, helter, and melissa and other assorted people. haven't hung out with stiles for a bit. so 3 weeks ago from today. where ya there?
slinkster:
ahh.. nope wasn't me. i'm really not so cute anyway.
i haven't talked to stiles much at all since june. :\ i miss him.
i'm really not so cute anyway.
i haven't talked to stiles much at all since june. :\ i miss him.
...You and that voice in your head need to sit down and have a little talk, by the looks of it.
The Chocolate War movie was great up until they changed the ending.