Thank u @lyxzen and @rambo :)
So I'm scrolling thru SG and notice this is the new blog homework. I normally wouldn't be able to answer this, but enough people have brought this certain quality to my attention and have told me they wished they were more like me in this sense.
Apparently, I have a great amount of self control. Esp during emotionally dramatic situations... Im great at keeping my composure...
An old manager of mine told me once, "Man, if only I was more like you are when I was ur age.... Things would be so different. I feel like you're too wise for how young u are."
Another friend going through a break up told me recently, "I was so mad last night! I didnt know what to do, we just argued over stupid shit and I kept crying and I thought to myself at one point, 'if only I were more like Ecco, she'd never let herself be in this situation'."
I'm really not that strong lol. Things can get under my skin and make me want to explode, but, I'm always telling myself to consider perspective. In the moment you're blinded by love, or anger, or sadness, or even excitement.... So it's easy to do stuff you'll regret or be embarrassed by later. So when ever I feel that way I always detach myself from, well, myself. I think. If I were in third person observing all of this, how would it look? How would I look?? And in a few days or months or years will I regret any of it?
So pretty much. If I were to say, walk in on my partner and some random screwing behind my back, I would consider the future, and her and his perspective of me. I could be the heartbroken crazy gf who to the girl, would be like, no wonder he's cheating. Or to him b like, she's crazy, and be talked about as the psycho x who flipped out and made a scene. Or! I could b the dignified young woman who was too good for him anyways and above her. It would kill me inside sure, but he'd be shocked I didn't freak out, in fact I would act like she did me a favor and break up with him right there. And she would start doubting herself, and doubting him, wondering, wait, why isn't she freaking out? She's too calm. Will he do this to me? Was she waiting for a reason to leave him? She's not at all like how he described. Isn't she threatened by me? Why didn't she retaliate?
And in all honesty, in the end they wouldn't have deserved my energy anyways. So in short, keeping it cool and thinking two steps ahead. I guess that's my best quality.
You stay classy San Diego ❤️
-signing off!
Ecco <3
