earthbeard

i am back and i intend to stick around for a bit if anyone feels liking chatting?

well life's been very busy of late and i've finally done some thinsg that needed to be done for the good of me, and no one else, i have said some nasty things this past week, and i feel bad that thye needed to be said as opposed to sayign them? i am equal measures sad, down but relieved and happy too, it is during such trying times you realise what truly matters and what the bad things in your life were? i just wish i wouldn't say the harshes thing i could say to peopel soem times? why i say them i'm not sure other than to lash out and force people away?

well that part of my lfie's over and i wish the poeple involved the best in their futures? and i sincerley hope they will leave me, my friends and my girlfriend alone! what they are doing is childish and unwanted, wake up you ten year old fuck cheeses.

i've been spying on all you people through my evil computer! and i'm glad the majorityof you are happy the majority of the time, it makes me happy to realise other peopel in this world arn't all about the negativity, you have to stay positive and happy otherwise you get stuck in a rut like i ahve and you're life can crumble and fade drastically! so people asist me in my climb from the depths of the dark and bring me to the light.

lots of folk leaving from work got lots of leaving do's to go to, now being edge makes it difficult for me to journey into pubs, they make me feel uncomfortable, but i will to bid farewell to freinds that leave my work.

so waht ya been doing?

a little test this not good, and why have i posted this.

Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Very High
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: Very High
Narcissistic: Very High
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High


bugger.

i think i have hurt someone i really did love! to the point that i can never talk to this person again.
sigh life's a bastard sometimes.