Quick post really.
I'm feeling bad about my weight. I might go back to the gym. I did get to a point where I really enjoyed going, but I stopped and it's hard to re-go when you stop.
I love my good curvy bits, but I'm curvy in the wrong places sometimes. When I'm walking around, especially in some nice dress or wiggle skirt, I'm confident, but when I see random photos, i think 'eek, I soo don't feel like that when I'm wafting around'. I get told I look as confiident as I feel with my curvy bits, and I think often I'm in denial of being 'bad curvy', because often I feel good with my curves.
Basically, it;s just mirrors and bad photos that spoil my buzz. Odd. I just needed to vent really. Annoyingly I live on healthy things (and coffee).
Plus, I always find women as curvy as me hot. I saw the hottest girl the other day ,and as I was having a good look (
) I realised she was bigger than me, and that was weird. Maybe I'm not supposed to mentally/physically be *this* curvy, but I'm a born curve-lover on other women? HhhMMMmmm.
In other news, hhmm, I'm still waiting to emigrate, seeing friends, having fun, etc. I also won a signed John Barrowman autobiography from a email in competition I entered. I never enter those things, so how random??
Trouble is, I already own the book now. I might ebay it to send it to a happier owner.
I know enough of his friends to get a copy signed if I ever wanted to anyhoo. And I'd be so embarrassed around them if they saw it on my bookshelf! I get teased because they see him as their over-hyped friend.
weird post, sorry, lol xxx
I'm feeling bad about my weight. I might go back to the gym. I did get to a point where I really enjoyed going, but I stopped and it's hard to re-go when you stop.
I love my good curvy bits, but I'm curvy in the wrong places sometimes. When I'm walking around, especially in some nice dress or wiggle skirt, I'm confident, but when I see random photos, i think 'eek, I soo don't feel like that when I'm wafting around'. I get told I look as confiident as I feel with my curvy bits, and I think often I'm in denial of being 'bad curvy', because often I feel good with my curves.
Basically, it;s just mirrors and bad photos that spoil my buzz. Odd. I just needed to vent really. Annoyingly I live on healthy things (and coffee).
Plus, I always find women as curvy as me hot. I saw the hottest girl the other day ,and as I was having a good look (
) I realised she was bigger than me, and that was weird. Maybe I'm not supposed to mentally/physically be *this* curvy, but I'm a born curve-lover on other women? HhhMMMmmm.
In other news, hhmm, I'm still waiting to emigrate, seeing friends, having fun, etc. I also won a signed John Barrowman autobiography from a email in competition I entered. I never enter those things, so how random??
Trouble is, I already own the book now. I might ebay it to send it to a happier owner.
I know enough of his friends to get a copy signed if I ever wanted to anyhoo. And I'd be so embarrassed around them if they saw it on my bookshelf! I get teased because they see him as their over-hyped friend.
weird post, sorry, lol xxx
When are you returning to LA?
The girl and I will be there this July, I'll buy you a drink!