earnest_suicide

I have come to the conclusion that I have the emotional IQ of a pebble. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr................... I'm feeling pissed off.

Maybe I just lack the basic social skills you learn by dating crap people for years? I have sex when I want to, and enjoy people for who they are. Sex is sex and love is love.

I'm a very independent person, and I'm self sufficient emotionally. I just don't find I 'need' that many people. I can give myself everything I need, and when things are tough, I have a couple of close friends who watch my back. But I think it's kind of hindered me somewhat; in the last few months I've been attempting relationships with people and nosediving something awful.

All that I'm managing to confirm in the past few months is that people are either for sex or love, not both. I was hoping to prove myself wrong, but haven't managed to yet. My usual stance is that I've never expected any one person to embody everything that would be good, so why look for it in all one person? Maybe I'm not not meant to be monogamous? Well, you can't say I didn't try to be open minded and try new things :p