escapegoat

well.......my computer is broke......and so am i.......my heart is missing.......and my cats miss me too.......sobriety is a sobering experience.....as the realities of this lifetime feel like a ball and chain.......and drunken extacies feel more like home.......

looked at a new place to dwell.........residence call it the "rock house"........lots of eclectic tripper music types........and im gunna score space #13.......it even has two doors.......so maybe its #26.........but...
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like a poetic ball of flame........both wicks lit......living every possible moment........escaping the mundane.....exit real world........maybe even invite some friends for the ride



sex,drugs,and karaoke........

stayed up all night again..........made some music with friends earlier on...........even got tired and feel into a trance of sorts for awhile.......then snapped out of it and went to work.......crashed out the goods......and ready for another day.........bring it on mother fucker!!!!!!!!!!

so ive been up all night trying to get a job done for guy........ya know.......doing him a favor........and im bankin some hours at the same time..........but this whole last couple of days has been about as smooth as fred flintstones chin...........no harmony......no flow.........no magic.......just shit.......a big old shit sandwich.........i shall receed within,and attempt to adress the problem.........soon enough,things shall be better..........sleep would be nice too..........more...
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very little seems to make sense anymore.....few people mean anything to me........what am i fighting for?.........what is the purpose of this lifetime?.......depressions getting old.........self serving fucks everywhere.........lack of vision........narrow minds........world of doom........rage within..........chemicals will kill the beast

what a day........helped install a rip snort small block in my friends truck (gearin up for race season).......then went and drove a project that i helped with last year that is now complete (a 1967 ss nova) 4 speed gear box,400 ci small block.....has so much torque that 1st gear is almost useless.......itll blow the tires off almost at will most any gear........rock on.....now im...
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pulling into the staging beams,1/2 an inch at a time

the remnents of tire smoke permiates the air

both ambers illuminated, all eyes on you

finger on the trigger,foot to the floor

shaking the earth,a monster bounces off the rev limiter

at the first sight of light, let the finger go

kaboom like a rocket, it came up green

planted in the seat, like a...
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so i listened to my body,as opposed to my self destructive mind..........feel asleep at 8......but just woke up..........i need to fall asleep again........to optimize my choice of staying in........

what should i do with myself........listen to my body......or my self-destructive mind.......?????

tonight was a lovely night,,,,,,,,silly goth kats.......and some live musics.........cheap jaeger.......free pot.......and some free coke........what else is there to life?........and dining at the hotcake house.....

is it possible to party for ever?..........what are the warning signs of too much party........and if it makes you happy, then is it wrong?

as much as my life feel like a pile of shit these days........and its hard to see the light sometimes...........i feel like something good is on its way..................not like the light at the end of the tunnel that turns out to be a freight train


so like this lady walks into the grocery store.......she picks up orange juice,eggs,bread,and a small block of cheese........she walks up...
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