escapegoat

why is everyone lost?


if you seem to think there is harmony and you have a purposeful spiritual direction please say hi and let me know whats going on.

my life feels like its circling the drain

uuggh.......lovely drug induced/dehydration sinus pain.........the things we do to ourselves to escape our everyday worlds..........

"I really dont feel like listening to you bitch, Bob!"

"Actually Bob, come to think of it, why don't you
SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!!!!!"

why does stress follow me?
i think i invite some of it,
some of it appears through "unawared-ness", unconsciousness,
some appears from having too much heart,
some of it appears through knowing too much......

ignorance is bliss........
it easier to be an asshole.....
its easier to not try......
just forget about your ideals
the world dont give a shit about how you feel.....
create your...
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heaven or hell are right here on earth.......

the minute some of these fuckin fucks start figuring that out we might get closer to heaven.....

our modern day world, medieval(sp?) as ever

corrupt ruthless govenments,
health care that doesnt work,
schools that are broke,
disease and addictions abound,
credit bureau mafias,
war,
and me

FUCK YOU!!!!!!

pressures building,
looking for an escape,
hearts racing,
and im short of breathe.
7 year cycle,
comes back around,


vortex draws me inwards,
resistance is futile,
throwing my arms in the air,
cant remember what to fight.

why do some people hold on to their misery?
why do some people get stuck in the downward position?
why do some people choose to get stuck in the dark?
what happens to their light heart?
what happens to their sense of humor?
why cant people giggle when things suck?
why do people hold on to their comfort bubble so hard?
its a conscious choice.....................
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im feelin greedy these days........i want lots of money so i can buy toys and run away occassionally and buy kool clothes and live large..........till then its just lots of work.........but soon enough.....bills will be cut down........bling bling will be flowin........ill have gear for big sounds......and gear for capturing them......and a fast car back on the road,with bucks to pay entry fees to race.......and a...
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wow......my computer has worked for five minutes..........longest its worked in two weeks......lap top display problems........pixelated freak out...........so far so good.........gotta get to the suburbs to get it fixed..........not enough time these days............and love still confuses everything

"ah honorable Confuses say "love ah cause and ah ansah with ah ahh the worlds ah probawems."

i want reckless abandonment............i dont want to have to worry about anything........i want irresponsibilty..........id rather concentrate on free flowing energies........and the dream girl to go with them...........randomositiy........drug induced frenzies........rambling.......connecting..........bonding.......flyin free..........check in to the body........tuned into the mind.........tapped into the universal soul.........fucking rockstars...........immortal............

im tired.........who wants to hold me while i snor?........

uh.....nevermind......that'll probably draw the wrong answers...............so ill reflect on surrealisms instead

has anybody had moments when you are doing something for the first time and your body releasesnatural drugs that make you feel surreal with the possiblity of hallucinations?............

i had a strange occurrance playing bass this weekend...........