escapegoat

wonderfuck

added some pics........


cant think straight...
dont know whats right or wrong...
up or down.....
im fucking up....
regroup....
steer the ship...
ride the dragon....
pet the cats....

crawling out of my grave
or maybe getting in
im not sure

in to left field i fall,
some that support mr,
some that dont,
im drunk,
drugs and left field are me....i wish you you were here to understand

and i dont really under stand whowhat why these fucking freak and me and well it really doesnt matter.....matter is matter...and well i am me.......and the reat search.....but i watch......and whatever.....gopod night

pages from "Cityheartahhh"



im sure that ConfUses says something grand and philosophical about temptation.
temptation is ones own hardest battles.
self control.
mastery of the self and ego.

Dude-ah say "temptation is fer pussies that dont let go.......a ship is safe in the harbor, but that isnt what it was built to do......buckle and fold....humanity and humility is good......come on man....check it out....try it....you know...
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like a song, its all about complexity made simple,
or even like a story line,
its in the hook,
wanna get some where in this world?
drop the hook,
wanna catch a fish?
use the hook,
wanna get somebodies attention?
hook em,
got a sweet romantic date,
break out the dr hook,
an old dude told me works everytime

i should try it sometime

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ian sings
i eat and write
muds flirtin
stymies jealous

now i walk the shore
searchin' for my soul
born in sea and sky
i think we've gone to far
on the ship of fools
i think we've gone too far
think we've gone too far
think we've gone to far

ian is a sharp cat
he's a love hate relationship
he's not jim
its...
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mmmm....french press Stumptown......
fresh baked Sesamee bagel and cream chesse......
1 packet emer'gen C......
liter n a half water.......
one odwalla superfood.....
a couple of djarums left.....
i think i can take on the day.....
but i think id rather run away....

as if i was reminded.....
there are still possibilities in this world...
as if id almost lost sight.....
there is a piece of me thats alive and well.....
i think i have been tought that there are rarities in this world......
and it make for very individual paths.....
rarities amongst the ordinary,makes for solitaire...
uno......un......one....singular.....lone....unique.....
usually found unimpressed.....away from the herd.......
sometimes we run into...
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its almost eight....
im working late....
stomach growl...
i havent ate....
gotta get....
its time to go...
got some things to do...
dont ya know....

last night fog slowly lifting......
sun beamed through all morning....
jaeger nectar.....
all night.....
makes the day rough....
but i feel so complete with it....
beam of light shining....
eyes squint for clarity.....
some glowing orb.....
just wait till the sunsets.....
so i can focus......
and see what really in front of me....
as if ill ever know.........

im my solitude,
no,
woke up this morning,
no,
whose wime, what wine,where the hell did i die,
no,
i cant get no satisfaction,
no,no,no,no,

let me curl up and sleep with dreams,
warm and fuzzy,
i cant think straight,
not sure what to think anyways,
maybe in a better light,
maybe some other place,
crystaline clear,
the answers.....

but then that would be boring,...
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