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So I was useing a roomates computer the other day and happoned apon a conversation between him and somebody I used to day. They were talking about people who were happy. So they got everyone on the list but two people. one of them was me. I wonder what they think my state of being is.

I am working full time food service now. No more security for me. I didn't really like it anywayse. I Like some of the conversation I used to get over there though. Especially with the manager and a couple of supervisors. I wonder what shit they talked after I left. I mean, thats how you know weather or not someone Is your friend. Weather or not they talk shit when your gone. I have relaxed a bit since working there. It has given me more time to play chess and forget about alot of other things. It has also opened me up to meet more people. Ill go out to a coffee shop and sit down with a " looking 4 a Game" sign and wait to see if anyone will play. right now I am averageing a couple people a day. I am studying a couple different openings so that I can put myself in a position in which I am fimiliar.

There was a cute girl that asked me to teach her how to play chess. I said yes. Met up with her and found out she is a wonderful person. So im sitting with this girl who is a wonderful person and has a boyfriend thats in costa rica and going to be studying abroad for another few months soon.... And I want to be as supportive for her as possible. Because I can't Imagine contributeing takeing away this person from anyone. She, so far, seems to be exactly what I would want in a girl. so my conclusion is I want something like her. Now that I know what I want I need to work on not settleing for less. I want to be her good friend.

-Joseph