e4

Its neat not being able to sleep because you did about a day and a halfs worth of it because of being sick pluss nyquill. i wake up early today probably to take a nap soon because of stairing at the screan or not, perhaps its false hope. becca took care of me the last couple of days which im sure helped out significantly.

Her roommate tried to have a a talk with me.... If it wasn't for becca it would have gone alot worse. I have alittle more respect for him for comeing too me but he was full of shit, his logic was flawed and i think he convinced himself that what he believes is right. i understand why he said it, I would have just prefered him to be alittle more straitfoward, and honest. that is all i have to say about that.

I didn't used to hold back. Iv'e been doing it alot more lately. I find more tactfull ways of saying things or dont bring them up all together, being patient enough to see if they fix themselves. Perhaps calling thing on the spot, even if a correct call isnt the most productive way of handling things. Its alwayse been easier for me to call bullshit when i see it. the only thing that this contradicts is my desire to be straitfoward and honest, which it seems (GASP!) that very, very, very few people actually appreciate.


(deep breath)

(exhale)

life is good. ill have everything set up soon. it could be alot worse. I have a couple of really good friends and that is more then alot of people can say. one of those people is the best friend ive ever had, and i am thankfull for haveing recently realized that. Im a pretty lucky guy. i just forget that sometimes and rant a bit.