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im kinda glad i didnt get the chance to read it. Its like i got off on the wrong foot with people without even stepping in the door. Admittedly ive made mistakes but I wonder who hasnt done and said things that were perhaps the wrong thing to say or do. or who hasnt done something that others misjudged because they didnt know what was really going on. I would really like to get along with everyone, I dont see a reason why at the very least an effort shouldnt be made. up untill recently i was very picky who I spent my time around on a regular basis and this change was in an effort to hopefully grow alittle. Im not asking anyone to like me at all, just get to know me before you decide im the asshole most people think i am.

Ps. this is not a plee for pity. Not that anyone has reason to but the last thing i need is someone to feel sorry for me. or a pony... i dont really need a pony either.

on a lighter note i think that things may be looking up. most of my week has been kinda crappy as far as real life is concerned. i just have a good feeling about things. every once in a while you need someone to help you put things back in perspective.