this weekend isnt working out, the saveing grace is that i start my chess lessons on wednesday. im so tired, i got like 3 hours of sleep and have been playing chess all day and my brain finally turned into mush. i have to get back to the shelter soon, curfew is 6 pm. i think im kinda down. I really hoped to be all set up by the end of tomarrow. at least ill get ahold of the bike to fix it up tomarrow. im trying to solve other stuff but am reluctant to ask for help, ive been fighting it tooth and nail. I need earphones so i can listen to music on my laptop in public. in two weeks i get my first paycheck from the borrito place. yay for direct deposit. i dont know if i can afford every thing im doing, but i will make due somehow. I think one of the reasons that the chess teacher and i get along so well is we have some very strong similarities in personality. and both of us are kinda depressed. hahaha. thats the first time ive admited it. for all the people ive hurt romaticly i probalby deserve how i feel. it was my turn, but everyone else that i hurt moved on to the next person to be interested or potentially involved with within fairly soon. I dont think im going to be ready for anything with actual substance for a while. i dont think ive actually been this bent over a person before. my dad warned me that one day it would be my turn and it would happon to me.. he is an asshole for being right. haha, i love my dad, too bad we couldnt hang out this weekend. i think ill go now. later.
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