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ive been drinking way too much over the last couple of weeks. i quit not too long ago and didnt seem to have too much trouble jumping right back in. so, i think im going back to the not really drinking thing. what i did realize last night though was that woodstocks, a pizza place downtown kinda in the middle of all the bars, stays...
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i could use some daft punk right about now

Seven things to do before I die:

make master rank at chess
actually walk the entire distance
train hop
get married
have a child
have a teaching job
watch someone die in person

Seven Things I Cannot Do:

things i dont want too for extended periods
not think about things
ignore peoples conversatinos around me
ignore blatent misuse of words
stay out of debates on...
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beautiful rainy weather in davis california. nice 3 or 4 hours of sunlight for the break, but then right back too the rain. sleep early tonight. goign to dads tomarrow to fix my house a bit. smoked tobacco out of a hooka with some good conversation. start a conversation with a new person today and listen for most of it. be willing to disagree but...
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a new day.

time for everyone to hate me again. there will be i told you so's and unkept threats. I have no desire to defend myself with explaining how i feel, or how this effects me or how i look at things. its not so much my way to do that without being asked and people didn't seem too keen on asking me last time. i think...
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being foward with opinions, ideas and passing thoughts is much different then being foward with intentions. not rare, but less common am i foward with intentions, especially if im not asked. my comfortability with this changes occasionally. i had this conversation with someone last night and they were telling me about how there father is "take me or leave me but im going too do...
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perhaps i wont forget things so much once i die.

my girfriend keeps watching this part of an episode of gilmore girls where someone gets proposed too, over and over again..........

so the other night my girfriend held my crotch at gunpoint and told me im going to prom. being in favor of keeping my manbits intact i, of course, agreed to go with her. now she wants me to go shopping with her for her prom dress and i am reconcidering getting my crotch blown off.


Actually i am looking foward too going to prom...
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::In the process of being alive one should not fear to live::


i dont alwayse enjoy being alive, but i love too live. you shouldn't waste your time not enjoying yourself.. Im kinda lucky in the way that my vocational persuit is something I enjoy, my job i dont mind and my girl i love. I wonder how many people can say that. i wonder...
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you are the devil and the devil is bad.