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have you any idea
what its like to be me
watching you succeed and move forward
all my wasted time tensing in anticipation
my thought process
full grown and worthless
safe when nobody is in your heart now
take everything you can get your hands on
save me save me from this yearning yet again
i have become what i always knew
i have become...
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Ridicule


ridicule my own
so precious alone
these faces of everyone
remind me of home
you're plotting riddled sin
all my needs giving in
blow me a kiss
and leave me to the dogs

so you think you got it
you think you know
you wanna bring me down
i am in my finest hour
ridicule my own
so precious alone
these faces of everyone...
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you never quite feel as alone as you feel when alone on valentines day

a season for failure? seems like the title of my life

There's a game life plays
makes you think you're everything they ever said you were
Like to take some time
Clear away everything I planned
Was it life I betrayed
for the shape that I'm in
It's not hard to fail
it's not easy to win
did I drink too much
could I disappear
and there's nothing that's left but wasted years
There's nothing left...
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All the world loves things of beauty and intrigue
These 2 things I've never had one
Born in this old skin. I'm too sick I can't win
I've lived with this damage 2 long
My eyes can't behold it I cannot control
This this feeling that's left in my heart
I've never done no wrong. I don't deserve these bones
Please burn up this sin...
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I could take every fucking word she says
Throw it in her face
but would she even care
I still remember when she looked at me
that frown upon her face
Trying to be sincere
I gathered all those little things she said
Kept them close to me
Trying to make this real
This cloud will always hover over me
I'm leaving you today
'cause...
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DO NOT have pity on me....some people tell me im a fool to hold on to any hope some people say you say you need space just to let me down slow. whatever the case is doesnt matter. i took you for granted and never did the things with you i wanted, all i can hope is maybe we can still do some of those...
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Fuck this. Fuck everything. I fucking hate this.


If I hear the "I love you...but only as a friend" thing one more time, I'm going to slit my throat.

Never Forget....
The way i looked into your eyes
The loving words i said
After just one week your heart turned to stone
you made me cry more than once
But i never cared how much you hurt me
i will never forget the loving words you once said i long to hear from your mouth again
i love you and you know it
But...
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