wide awake & dreaming...
well... i got to talk to tristan yesterday. it made me feel better... he will be leaving california to ireland the day after my birthday (9/6) i miss him so much. i wish he would come back already. i understand why hes doing all of this... this "i have to get my shit together otherwise, nothing will get better for us type of thing"... it just hurts. being with someone for almost 2 years and one day its all gone... how to you deal with that? im having a hard time adjusting... but in all of this there is someone else.... thats where the dilema comes in... i love tristan, but someone has been on my mind constantly for the past 4 months... i am so into this person, but.... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! im so fucking confused... i dont know what the right thing to do is... if there is a RIGHT thing to do... things are just supposed to happen as they would, right? then why do i feel as though im fucking shit up?
this is the hell that is my life right now...
well... i got to talk to tristan yesterday. it made me feel better... he will be leaving california to ireland the day after my birthday (9/6) i miss him so much. i wish he would come back already. i understand why hes doing all of this... this "i have to get my shit together otherwise, nothing will get better for us type of thing"... it just hurts. being with someone for almost 2 years and one day its all gone... how to you deal with that? im having a hard time adjusting... but in all of this there is someone else.... thats where the dilema comes in... i love tristan, but someone has been on my mind constantly for the past 4 months... i am so into this person, but.... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! im so fucking confused... i dont know what the right thing to do is... if there is a RIGHT thing to do... things are just supposed to happen as they would, right? then why do i feel as though im fucking shit up?
this is the hell that is my life right now...
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