dylanisdead

I have no idea why i do the things i do. A few weeks ago i met this really cool really attractive girl and she wanted to pursue something with me. Well last night i told her i just want to be friends...and i don't know why. If i try to peace it together in my mind i have no idea why i did this. The thing about all this is that this isn't the first time i've done this, everytime i meet someone i like, i push them away and ruin a good thing. I don't really know why i do this...maybe i just don't want to let anyone know my core, maybe i'd rather feel lonely. If i can't figure myself out maybe it's better i shouldn't let someone try to figure it out with me. Maybe i just lost my mind a long time ago.....