Sorta in a rut really bad at the moment. Things are just continuing to go around and around in circles but downward at the same time. I've been hanging out at this house for just about every weekend since October and now for the last month no one has hardly been there at all. Last night it was me and 2 other guys watching TV and tonight the same thing. My one friend who originally was always there is mad at them now because they seem to be smoking weed EVERY weekend now and I'll admit it's starting to get a little old.

I tried to "shake things up" a bit by showing up somewhere where I never go completely unannounced and unexpected. I get there and no one is there. I call my friend who is always there and he says he's going out to dinner with some girl instead. I turn around and head back home. Seriously considered butting my boxers back in the drawer since I had only worn them like 10 minutes but they went in the laundry pile instead.

Just once I would like to be noticed by a girl, even if I'm not interested in her. This girl likes another friend of mine and was doing the typical whispering whenever he would leave the room or something and it made me so freaking jealous. I've never gotten that kind of attention. I wanna be the one being talked about when I leave a room and not for bad reasons, cuz that's happened way too many times. I also wouldn't mind my best friend trying to hook me up with a girl instead of doing it for other people or more often than not meeting a girl and trying to get with her himself, even when he does have a girlfriend at the time. Blah.

Leave some comments people so I don't think I'm talking to myself again.