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so confused and drunk right now. i shouldn't have even drove home. fucking myspace had to go and add that feature so you can find your friends from your various screen names. i did the search and my ex gf came up even though she's not even on yahoo, i guess cuz her email was in my address book? either way. it came up and the pictures were definitely not the person she gave me pictures of. so i'm so confused right now. i confronted her about it and she said that she was upset that i wouldn't believe her and said she didn't even know what myspace was.

honestly, what am i supposed to think? i find a profile that has the exact info about her, all the things she likes, bands, etc and the only thing is that she has pictures on there of someone who i've never seen before. if she's lying to me then i'm going to be so completely crushed. she made me feel bad for assuming that but what am i supposed to fucking think? how many people would make a profile about her and put pictures of some other girl on there?

i defended her for the last almost 4 years from all the people that she said she was full of shit and how she hurt me. i loved her. it was an internet relationship and people say that's bullshit but i fell in love with her, okay? deal with it already. i loved her for her amazing personality and the fact that she was so dedicated to me and honestly in love with me. i wouldn't have cared if she was 800 pounds. then like 5 months after we broke up she sends me pictures of this amazingly beautiful person and i fell in love with her all over again. so how would you feel if you found something 3 years later that basically told you that you were a moron?

i'm crying my eyes out and am amazed that this is so coherent. i'm so confused and don't want to find out that she lied to me like so many other people.