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wow...my brain isn't doing soo well right now. hasn't been for a few days. while i'm maintaining, i can totally feel that i'm down in a hole, i feel so small n crappy right now. i guess it's a good thing that my cowboy hasn't been feeling well n has been staying home n not coming over, cuz it just makes it so much harder when the person you're with doesn't understand n thinks you can just stop it or 'fell better' in an instant. the last thing i wanted was sex, but i gave in just to get it over with so i could move on with my evening without it driving him crazy. sex should never happen just to get it over with, so i KNOW my head is not in the right place. i know what triggered it, or at least part of it. but i also feel as tho the rainie weather i've been getting should boost myspirits since it's my fave weather, but i guess this just means i'm really broken right now.

broken...

p.s. it's dime day...hail all that is dime. RIP dime, you are missed brother